Wednesday, December 25, 2013

So this is me on Chirstmas

Happy Happy Party People!
               Yes I know it's Chirstmas, yes I know we should be all giddy with excitement, I think I would be as happy as I'm supposed to be if it weren't for this impending move and life change I'm about to make in 30 days ><.
                I'm tired most days, I try to drive at least 10-14 hours a day but it gets to the point where I feel like I just come home to sleep then it's off to work I go. I don't feel I should gripe too much as no one put me in this place but me, and depending on how good I'm doing I might not even complain about it at all. That seems to be the common denominator these days," how much money did I make today?"
                "The child in me is screaming right now."

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

I wonder why?

Morning Party People,
             I have to make this quick as I need to get out the door and get this day started. I felt the need to post for a few reasons this morning.
             First I wanted to say thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday, it really made a difference in my day. To those who didn't, I still love ya anyways, lord knows I'm horrible about birthdays.
             Secondly, I've been pretty pissy for the past few days, I'm not sure why, maybe my birthday is starting to get to me? Maybe getting older is starting to piss me off? I've noticed a sense of angst out on the road as of late but the more I think about it I think I'm just being negative. I catch myself thinking about how awesome it would be to unload a world of pain on the general public, then I catch myself and think," Why are you so angry?"
            That's the question of the day, I'd like to think that this isn't coming from out of the blue, that there is a starting point to this pissy mood I'm in. Perhaps that will be the focus of today!

Till next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Friday, November 29, 2013

Time moves forward as do both Jennie and I

Morning Party People!
                Before we get into it I'll just spit out the news. Jennie and I are moving to Colorado! More than likely we'll be in Denver or someplace just north of Denver. I've been looking forward to a move like this ever since my divorce, needless to say I've been wanting this for quite sometime!
                We'll be missing all of our friends and family deeply but in the end the world's opportunities don't always come to our doorsteps, sometimes you have to step out the front door and head off into the sunset to see what life has in store for you!
                I'm not sure how this will effect the podcast but it might have to go on hiatus for a few weeks. I'll try to record as much as possible so I'll have enough content for you guys for at least a month.
                Here's the hard part for me, while Jennie and I are working our tails off to cover the moving expenses it always helps when there is a little help. What does this mean? It means we could use some cash!
                There's two ways you can help:
                - You can go to and hit the Amazon banner before you do you holiday shopping. Make sure to clear your cookies first (web browser history) and Amazon will throw a portion of that sale back to us. Other than clicking on our link first nothing will change are far as how you usually do your shopping online!

                 - When you go to and go to the podcast page you can also donate a buck to the podcast via paypal!

Anything helps even just the thought of helping, so all is appreciated!
I need to get to work so till next time Party People!
Keep on a Chooglin!

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Day: Who the hell knows (15 I think)

Morning Party People,
            I'm starting to lose some of the motivation for doing this, I'll still keep at it but I wouldn't want to lie and say that some mornings this doesn't feel like a chore.
            I like to start these blogs on a high note as you can tell. Ok so whats on the menu for today? I'm not in a cab as the system was down and I didn't want to deal with a bunch of angry people who are all late for their appointments. That and the battle to get downtime didn't seem all that appealing. I'm hoping to make better use of my time today, so let's start by making a list shall we?
            - Car: I need to figure out what the hell is wrong with my ac/heater. I can live without ac in AZ but moving to CO in the winter without a heater sounds like suicide.
            - Scooter : Jennie bought a scooter that worked for a week and has been collecting dust ever since. I'm no mechanic but maybe there's something I can do with my hands and the power of the Internet, not sure how looking at porn will help but it's worth a shot.
            - Podcast sponsorship: I'm not sure if my podcast is worth being sponsored just yet but it's worth looking into.
            - Pod merch: I'm thinking of a t-shirt to go with the pod but I know nothing of graphic design and have a bunch or research to do, that or a lot of phone calls to make to people who do.
            - Comedy: I need to rewrite my new bit and see....well shit I just need to rewrite it. When it kills then I can let it rest.
            - New Pod: I might be starting a new pod in the next week or so. I could follow up on all of that.
            I have my work ahead of me, just have to remind myself how bad I want it all.
Till Next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Day 14 Working it like it aint no thang!

Morning Party People,
            Ok Itunes, I'm giving your radio app a shot. Let's see how it's taste is concerning my taste in music.
            I had a strange day with my sweetie, it was one of those days where we both had different ideas of how we should spend the day so I don't think either of us got to spend the day exactly how we wanted. The good part was that we spent the day together, that's all I really wanted, I should be grateful for how the day worked out seeing as there's been days that were far shittier and I was apart from her the whole time.
            All I want to do some days is be around her. I wonder if that's love or dependence? This relationship is so much different than any other I've had. I think I had a few good ones, don't get me wrong, but by and large I was never in a good place to actually be in a relationship. These days I finally feel free to be who I am without apology,that kind of freedom really let me be open to someone like Jennie. I don't want to go into it any more, I'm afraid I might jinx us. Watch I'll go on and on about how much she loves me and the first words out of her mouth to me will be ,"We need to talk."
            I have two episodes to record today, I hope they both show, even if they don't I still have an episode for tomorrow, how's that for being responsible? If I record today that will be six months of shows that I've produced! I feel more like me, the real me when I'm creating. I say that as opposed as someone who is just occupying this place in space and time. How's that for progress?

Till next time Party People,
Keep on a Chooglin!

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Day 13: Who the hell knows

Morning Party People!
            So I have a new keyboard so my fingers are still getting used to the size and dimensions. It would come to me a lot easier if I knew how to type though.akjfqw;ouefhowr 
            I'm taking a few days off from the cab biz, so far I'm having cabbie withdrawals. I've gotten so used to always having driving on my mind. At the moment I don't feel relaxed, I just feel shitty for not making any money right this second. Holy shit I think I have a problem.
            You ever think of an embarrassing moment you once had and you find yourself cringing? I find myself doing that a lot lately. I have no idea why. I wonder if that's an internal critic of mine that's trying to keep me distracted from something? I sounds about right. Apparently there's a limit of how good I let myself feel, only so happy I can let myself get. I think I have a sneaky fear of disappointment in my life. I seem to remember disappointment being a big thing to me when I was a kid , then at some point it didn't bother me anymore. I think some where along the line I taught myself not to expect anything to good to happen, that way I never have to deal with any disappointment.
              So what is disappointment? The feeling of realization of some sort of failure? Whether it's from my doing or someone else's? What should I have learned back then? Perhaps to be understanding of some one elses efforts or maybe I should have learned to look harder at my own efforts to see where I had failed? I think that's a big thing. I seem to be naturally good at a lot of "smart" things as a kid. So maybe I always expected to be great at everything and didn't learn how to pick myself up after coming up short. Obviously I've had to do this many times but I think I still have that defense mechanism built into my skull. So it's time for a change!
              I'm getting into a better practice of writing my material (thanks to these blogs). 

Thursday, October 31, 2013

Day 12: ok I lost count =P

Morning Party People!
            To start things off this morning let me disclose that I've been driving all night and the delirium is starting to take hold. I'm listening to John Denver on my headphones and I'm sure I'm going to get all weepy, that or hungry for an omelet.
             Open mic is getting better, had a lot of fun and the bit worked out about as well as I thought it would. Obviously it needs many rewrites but I'm happy to see some progress. This blog is starting to produce some results!
             Now the task is to keep this momentum going. I know I have a habit of coasting as soon as I think I'm doing something right. It's definitely true in the cab biz. One step at a time right?
             I'm feeling better, well maybe not better, I feel like I have a lot more clarity about whats going on in the life.
             One off the open mic gals at the club was selling photos of each comedian's set, of which I bought one. I think I'm starting to realize how tubby I really am. That's a good thing however. It's something that I need to see but haven't seen in quite sometime.
             I went for a walk yesterday, felt good to out in the world instead of living life through a cab windshield.
            I know I should write more but I'm starting to nod off, must be the Denver.

Till next time party people,
Keep on a Chooglin

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Day 10 a special holliday!

Morning Party People!
                I'ts 10 am so I'm writing a little late. I got up and started driving this morning to tranasport people to and from where ever they need to go I noticed that it must be a very special day this morning.
                I guess it's ,"Drive like an A-Hole Day"
                Ok enough about mundane bitching about my lame income. I had a weird night last night. I hit the open mic and did the new bit, it went ok but thats not what stuck with me. The host made a joke when I went up on stage and said that I look like Meatloaf (the singer). I thought it was funny and laughed because I know her well enough to know that she was doing what comedians do, she saw someting and made it funny. I reacted by pretending to sing like meatloaf from Rocky Horrow and then we all moved past it. What I didn't know is that she took a pic and posted it on FB with the caption, Meatloaf came in to do a set tonight. Again, I thought it was funny.
                Now I'll say this here because because writing and being honest with myself is what this blog is about but I wouldn't never say this on a FB thread because it would kill the joke. I haven't felt bad about my weight for awhile but seing people that I didn't know making fun of me kind of rubbed me the wrong way. I've been thinking a lot about it. Maybe I'm not as comfortable in my own skin as I thought I was?
                In an unrelated post another tubby comedian posted how he just ran five miles, good for him. This also upset me, but for obvios selfish reasons. I need to spend some time thinking on this....

Till Next Time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Day 10 I think my cat is trying to talk to me

Morning Party People!
           Thus morning I woke up extra early and made a pot of coffee, as the coffee brews I slip into the shower, kind of a ritual to wash away the previous day, that and to not smell like a hobo. As I sit down at my desk my cat Baboo wants to jump up to my lap so I can hold her. I need to write and I know if I don't pick her up she'll then resort to jumping up on the desk and will try to walk on the keyboard. Seriously, yesterday she sent an IM to one of Jennies friends on her computer without Jennie knowing about it. Granted all she sent was "BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB" but you get the idea.
           At one point when I was playing Batman Arkham City I noticed she was watching the tv intently as a fight scene with Catwoman was taking place. I'm not sure but she might be the next step in kitty evolution, or she would have been, thankfully we had her fixed as to ensure the survival of the human race.
           I'm having trouble pushing myself to work the long hours required the a taxi driver should work. I don't know if it's just that I'm so tired of it, or that I refuse to rise above a certain income level. I tend to only make what I need to make, which is fine but I bitch about money so much thatI'm obviously not ok with it. Must push harder I guess, keep on a Chooglin as I would say if I ever said that.
           That phrase is from a CCR song if anyone was curious.
          "Keep on doing what you love, money will find a way to you" I read that in a book for recovering artists. I still believe it, I have a feeling something has got to change, I'm just not sure how.
           I wrote a new bit yesterday, I'm going to try it out at an ope mic tonight. Dos Gringos on Priest is a nice room, not a lot of people so there's not as much pressure, that and it's $2 taco tuesday, so that makes it all the better!
           The was a dinner theater troupe that was holding auditions, I submitted and headshot and resume and they responded with an invitation to come to the auditions. The bummer was that I tried over a few emails for them to give me some details about where and when but they never got back to me. I was supposed to do a reading at 11am on a Sunday but he never said where. When I woke up at 9 that morning and didn't see an email I sent him another email asking me to take me of the list (politely). He responded with another option , that I do a reading later in the week. I sent him my schedule when I could read and he sent back a time that I wasn't available for. After that I told him that I had just received another offer and wouldn't be able to be in his show. I hate lying but it was better than being bitchy and saying the real reason why I wouldn't come read, just too many red flags.
            I know I sound like a Prima Donna but when someone I'm trying to work for won't respond to an email in a reasonable amount of time, or doesn't read the email I sent I tend to be very wary of the job....that and the website looked like ass.
            Till Next time Party People!
Keep on a Chooglin!

Monday, October 28, 2013

Day 9 ...I think

Afternoon Party People!
            So first ff, no I don't do my writing this morning. It's not a hell worthy trespass but I have to make sure I don;t do the same thing tomorrow morning. I don't want to get into the habit of givng myself too much slack.
             Last night I I put the finishing touches on the most current podcast. It's getting easier each week to get these puppies out ter into the net. That part I'm glad for, now listening to them thee next morinng is another thing entirely. I don't have the usual hang ups, like hating the way I sound, seriously though, I'm an actor, why wouldn't I love the sound of my own voice?
            Now my main focus is to provide entertaining content, I'm trying to record conversations that we normally wouldn't have. I think doing that we gain access to new parts of this life we've yet to explore.
            I think in my last blog I was on the topic of food stamps and weed. I was going to continue the topic here but that's turning into a bit so Im going to work it out on stage.
            I have no idea how the hell I'm going to move to Denver, all I know is that I am. I can tell but the nervous feeling in my gut that gets stronger and stronger the closer December gets. If anything the next year should be very interesting!
            I need to work on some material, so till next time party People!

Keep on a Chooglin!

This episode gets heavy this week! Fair Warning =P

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Day 8/9 We all knew it would happen, one day missed.

Morning Party People!
            Ok I missed a day, there are now exuces to be made, one a refocusing on my original plan. To keep writing the moment I wake up, or in this case right before I pass out from exhaustion . I't 4:30 am and I've been driving all night. I had fun and I made a decent amount of cash, so nothing new to report there.
            While  was driving around a questrion came to me.Why do we hate the poor so much that we will take their food from them if the get high?
             Granted the thought of moeny going out to someone who is just getting high all day doesn't exactly envoke sympathy in me but I think this idea goes deeper than that.
             First off lets deal with the fact that weed is still considered a class 1 narcotic, meaning it has NO medicinal value whatsoever. We all know this is bullshit. Here in AZ we have medicinal marijuana to help treat people with chronic pain as soon as they cough up a shitload of cash. What you think it's free to be in pain?
            Lets assume that the prohibition on weed goes away, that seems to be the trend of thing from where I stand. So how would that effect the poor people and their food stamps? Are we still going to stick it to them if they smoke up? What about alcohol? What about psych-meds?
            Or how about we focus on why a fellow human who grows up in the same country, the same town, goes to the same school, feels its pointless to do anything?
           Granted I could go on and on about being born into poverty and the struggle of the 99% and all but that's not the basis of this question. The question is, why couldn't they do the same thing I did?

I've descovered that my fatigue says that this topic will be discussed at a further date.

Till next time
Keep on a Chooglin

Friday, October 25, 2013

Day 7 waking up late

Morning Party People,
            I imagine that these blogs are becoming less and less interesting to read, sorry about that. Unfortunately for all of us I'm not writing these for entertainment but more so to build a writing regiment. The more I don't want to write, the more I force myself to. There are some that say that creativity shouldn't be forced, much like exercise. Up until recently I would be inclined to agree, so would my fat ass.
            So here I am, plugging away, trying to get the thoughts in my head on this screen, So what should I talk about? How about music?
            I've bought two albums in the past week so far. Branches by Radical Face and Girl Talk by Kate Nash. The branches I loved instantly as it's more of the same from radical face yet far deeper, they do such a great job of painting a rich picture to explore via sound, I highly recommend it, espescially if you like to get high.
            Girl Talk is definatly growing on me! Kate Nash has gone in a new direction from sweet angst ridden gal to a sweet agnst/angry/fierce gal. Meaning she has dealved into some punk roots that meshes well with her melodies. I'm glad I gave this album a chance as at first listen I wasn't too thrilled with it, I guess I thought Kate had left what made her so great behind. She hadn't, she just grew into a richer artist and it shows in her music....and no I'm not just saying that because I want her on my podcast =P
           I love this world so much and most of the people in t, I truly do, perhaps I should say that more....

Till Next time Party People
Keep on a chooglin!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Day 6

Morning Party People,
              Like usual I'm not sure what to write here. I know my back is killing me right now, I have zero desire to start driving now so perhaps I'll go out later and work through most of the night, that could be fun. There I go again, thinking about money again. I don't  want to write about income, because I think it's tedious.
              I went to the open mic but didn't wait around to go up, it had been about two hours or so. I'm not hating, it happens. I just wished I had the time to wait, it feels crappy to leave the club without going up. I did get a chance to chat with some of the more veteran comics, and one of them might want to do the podcast, so if anything the evening wasn't a complete loss.
              So here I am, at this keyboard, wondering what to put on this page. at the moment I'm listening to an album of an artist I'm trying to get on the podcast, the thing is I'm not liking their new album too much. It's not bad, it's just in a new direction. I'm thinking if by some chance this person would do the podcast would I have to lie and say I titaly dug the new tunes? I wouldn't try to be a dick, you ever see a friend of your start hanging out with some new people and suddenly you can see how their heart and soul are being poisoned by theur new friends. Much like heroine I guess. That's what this new album sounds like to me. This is only the first listen thoug, I can tell I will like it more and more as I learn to appreciate it. After all it took me awhile to enjoy Girl in a Coma's last album.
              Come to think of it, there was never a Beastie Boys or a Blind Melon album I ever liked on the first listen, so that should tell you something about my taste in music =P

Till next time Party People
Keep on a Choogln!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Day 5........Five Alive sucked! It was OJ for poor kids growing up

Morning Party People!
           Stream of conciousnous writing hitting the keys soon after I wake up. As soon as I get up anyways, I wouldn't call myself awake just yet.
           Unike yesterday money was not the first thing that entered my mind when I woke. Today I was thinking about my set for later tonight, I think that's a better place to focus my attention.Progress!
           When I checked the stats on my Podcast I saw that I was at 27 listens for the week which is awesome because it used to take me a whole week to get to thirty listens. Progress!
           I downloaded Radical Face's new album which was amazing, much better than the last album which in itself was pretty amazing. Progress!
          Coffee+MCT oil+grass fed butter+a blender=one kick ass cup of coffee!....not so much progress as a tasty morning beverage I thought I'd share.
          Yesterday I was on a voucher run and the lady asked if we could stop on the way for some smokes. Normally I don't but she seemed like a person worth bending the rules for. She has brain cancer, she said it doesn't look good and she doesn't know how long she has, it's odd that I made her day a little better by helping her get something that would make her feel worse. Ironic? Unfair, or is it just very lifelike?
          I wonder who I'll meet today, I wonder who I'll meet tonight at the pen mic? All I know is that doing these little blogs is starting to make a difefrence on how I see my day...progress!

Till next time Party People,
Keep on a Chooglin!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

This week Justin Dam and I have a great conversation, then Sam Fleager joins us!

Day 4 Results!

Morning Party People!
         I almost left the house before writing this blog. Money is always on my mind the moment I wake up, I'm not liking it either. There is a bunch of things I'd rather be in my head when I wake up, my sweetie, my art, hell I'd prefer being excited about hanging out with some of my friends. Instead I think about how much money I hope to make today.I can see writing these thoughts out that my priorities are mixed up.
         I'm a big fan of Joe Rogan's podcast, I find myself agreeing with a lot of the ideas he talks about but every now and ten he says something that rubs me the wrong way. It was something to the effect of - if you're pissed about the money you make it's because you don't want to see that it's probably all the money you deserve. Is that true? Am I destined to be poor my whole life? Is anything ever going to get better. Am I stuck in a shitty year in high school that's never going to end?
        I was bummed out when that idea came into my head, I had to fight the idea, to keep it from coming a fact that I felt about myself. I think that idea was already in my head, it was just hiding. So was this all I deserved? Well what actions do I take to warren the income I bring in? Am I working as hard or as smart as people who make more than me? No, no I'm not.
        Ok so at least I have some truth now, what's the next step? Make a plan, take some action. I'm pleased to say that that ball is already rolling.
        I started this blog, or this dailly blog so I could get in the habit of writing on a daily basis, last night after Jennie went to bed I stayed up for a bit so I could write. I finnaly got a bit that I'd been half assing for a year now on paper and I think I've got a direction for it to go, I can't wait to try it out tonight at the open mic!
        I think the more I work like this the more I will deserve (at least to myself). Only time will tell!

Till next time Party People,
Keep on a chooglin!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Day 3 Work

Morning Party People!
       Yesterday I made no money. GASP!
        That's right I didn't drive yesterday, this might bite me in the ass later in the week but for now I feel ok about it. I spent the day recording three episodes of the podcast. The first interview went a lot better than I expected it to. The second worked out like I thought it would and the third went deeper than I though t would.
        I'm not sure what to write next as I've yet to have any coffee this morning. I hate it when my brain gets stuck in 2nd gear >< Coffee should be done in a few minutes , wath once I start drinking it nothing on this page will change. POOF like magic, shit stays the same!
        So what's next for this week? Why the hell am I thinking that far off >< What's on the list for today? Today I'm hitting the road while running bits through my head occasionally writing them down. Perhaps my goal will be to write more ideas down so when I get home I can spend more time here working out the premises if you will!
        Not sure if this idea of writing as soon as I wake up is a good one....
        At least there's coffee, and at least I showed up to the keyboard, for now that's good enough, tomorrow I might expect more from me, for today I'm happy I'm here.
        Now how do I translate this effort into an exercise I can do?

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Day 2 ok so now what do I talk about?

I've been up for about 30 minutes, I have my coffee mixed with mct oil and butter, here we go!

Morning Party People!
             Today was different when I woke up. Maybe it was seeing Jennie when I first woke up, or maybe it was the good night I had driving the cab, or it could be the four podcasts I'm set to record today. I think in the end it was that I have a bunch to lok forward to today...or maybe it's that today I'm not taking anything for granted, either I'm alive and I psyched to be in this dimension!
             That's right I said dimention! I mention that because last night I stopped by Stand Up Scottsdale to see some of my comedian peeps. I like doing that because 1. They're awesome to hang out with and 2. Seeing other people getting paid for what I want to be doing sets a subtle yet scorching flame under my nute to keep working.
             As I was walking up to te club last night I saw Jules (Not sure if I spelled his name right but lets go with this for now). I've met Jules at the open mic nights and the dude has always been super friendly. I hadn't seen him for a bit and asked him where he's been. His response was to the effect of "recovering rom a DMT trip from a few weeks past" I was instantly facinated.
             For those of you who don;t know DMT or    dimethyltryptamine is an intense psychedelic which Joe Rogan talks about all the time. Jules was willing to share his experience with me so I listened to his tale of how his ego broke down and how he saw the dimensions of the world we live in, all of it very fascinating. I'm curious about having an experience like that myself. I think it's the death of my ego that I would be looking forward to. With my luck I would see nothing but a vision of me running the floor of some diner at the age of 72, I'd have a heart attacke right in the middle of a Sunday brunch shift with only one server and no cook and a full house. That would be the ultimate hell to live and die in for me.
             I got to get ready for the day now, feel free to copy and paste your morning thoughts/muses/ shit you gotta spit!

Till next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Saturday, October 19, 2013

As promised, day 1

Morning Party People!
           Ok so here's da one of "I just woke up writing". Just to be honest I woke up about 20 minutes ago, I made coffee and put some butter,mct oil as well as some cocconut sugar in it to give it that special taste that seems to make me so happy these days.  I hearthe mct oil is suppose to help with weight loss for sme reason, I believed it yet I have done no research on it, I only have faith that someday this gut of mine will go away and I can be the me that I've always wanted to be.
           Fat is something that I've aleays hated about me, it's the last thing I despise no that  thnk about it.I've learned to love even the worst things about me over the past few years (ever since the rebirth) yet my body still isthe source of much of my dismay. "You're going to get fat, you're going to get fat,'you're oing to get fat,get fat,get fat,get fat, ou're too fat,too fat ,too fat, fat,fat,fat...." It might seem like I'm being overly dramatic but if I look back into a select area of my past I could run a stream of instances where those words we're always thrown at me, usually from people who thought they were helping. Remember when I said that the wonderful yet horrifing thing about mankind is that if you tell a human something long enough eventually they believe it? This is what I believe, I'm fat, have always been fat, will always be fat and will die a blob of failure that people will point and laugh at. When I think about it I get so angry I want to hurt everyone around me, I can't hurt my friends and family though right? I love them, they love me, so what do I do with this anger?
           This is the part where I'm trying to rewire my brain. My MO is to get angry/depressed and rather than do something constructive I take that anger out on me. I do this by eating like shit, eating something horrible like a double whopper, fries, coke oh and don't forget the chocolate pie they have! On the way home I should get something to snack on later, sure I have frozen pizza at home as well as pasta but I could go for a hostess cupcake or some chips right about now. sounds good? Maybe a little gross? I agree completely Party People.
          Here's the thing about addictions to anything, they feel great! If they didn't we wouldn't do them. They feel so good in fact that while they are changing your life for the worse you don't even realise it. Think of an anesthetic for your soul, you're numb, they joy that once was so intense becomes into a desire to not feel anything at all. Well I need to feel again, feel something else besides my stomache anyways. I find myself focusing on what I'm feeling after I eat, I don't want to hate myself anymore when it comes to food but I don't want to be too easy on me either.
           There's some baby steps in here somewhere I know it, I just don't see it just now. I won't get too down on not seeing them as this is only day one =)

Till next time Party People!
Keep on a Chooglin!

Friday, October 18, 2013

It's a lot of what you would think it is, not what it ever was...only more so!

It's a lot of what you would think it is, not what it ever was...only more so!
          That's right I'm feeling creative Party People! Hence the confusing idea that's used as bait to lure you all into thinking that I'm thinking deep! Before I go any further let me show you the inspiration to this artsy high I'm feeling :

           As I was listening to Steven Pressfield author of The War of Art I found myself hating the fact that I was driving a cab instead of sitting here at my computer writing (like I am right now). This pod is making me look at what forms of resistence I have in my life and now I'm formulating a plan on how to overcome them.
           Am example of resistance if distractions that keep me from writing on a daily basis. So perhaps I need to jump start my writing again by doing a daily blog? I've done 90 days of continuous writing, this should be no problem, right?
           I think a theme is needed for this upcoming project though. I've got it! I'll write a blog every morning for the next thirty days! Why morning time? Because I won't have been completely awake so the stream of conscious writing should be in full effect! Think of this as a workout rgiment for creativity, you're all welcome to join in the work if you like in the comment section, just copy and paste your own blog into the comments and let's see what we come up with! It doesn't have to make sense, hell we don't even have to read it after we're done! I think the writing alone is going to make this super special and 10 types of awesome!

Till Next Time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Friday, September 20, 2013

A few ideas and questions for The Party People!

Evening Party People!
            Great hoobly woobly has it been awhile since I've taken the time to write to all of you out there in the ether of the net. Things have been super busy as of late and now I find myself in the position of regulating my time from work,more work, a little bit of sleep and anything else that's dear to me.
            As far as the taxi biz I'm doing weekly leases. That means I have the cab with me 24/7. It also means I'll have the opportunity to make some serious green for the trip to Colorado this winter! I find myself working a few hours in the morning, then I come home to spend some time with Jennie then it's back out onto the road with hopefully a stop t an open mic later that evening. In other words from 6 in the morning till about 10 at night I'm running around.
           When I'm not doing that I'm recording my podcast so I can keep my creative brain a moving along. As far as the pod goes I feel like it gets better with every week. I'm having a blast talking to all these great local artists and I think down the line it might mean something, assuming it doesn't already.
      Ok enough about the whole," I'm so tired bullshit". Let's talk about something that means something to all of us, spaceships!
         I know crowd sourcing is a big thing these days and I wonder why no one has stepped up and said," Hey instead of waiting for the government or some corporation to make this happen we thought we'd build this shit ourselves, that's right bitches we're building a star ship and clocking out of this rat race."
         Seriously isn't the internet supposed to bring us all together? Geez I wonder where we could find some geniuses....(geniusi?), to help us create the tech to see this through....hey I wonder if they're on this internet thing, you know the same thing we use to watch porn as well as huge zit popping vids. If anything I think the idea of this needs to rattle around in our skulls. We need to hope for something big to happen that isn't a disaster,  we need to hope for a light at the end of the tunnel, the end of the school year, or dare I say, the first moments of a Christmas morning.
         Could you imaging if there were a few hundred thousand of us that all helped build a massive ark to explore the universe! Even better we could tell all the nations to have fun fighting amongst themselves in the century old war of domination! Dear everyone, the pawns have left the board!
          Think about it =P

Till next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

This week we sit down with Clay Elliott and talk about Japanese and stuff!

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Growing up poor, moving to a new country, and attempting to kill your boss , all on this week's episode!

Another late start = another kick in the ass from me to me

Here I go again,
               No, a better way to put it is, here I am again. Feeling stuck,pissed off and broke. I hate when my life feels like this, espescially the broke part. Money is tight for most of the cabbies in Phoenix this time of year and there's nothing to be done about it expect to grin and bare it. I'm still working hard in that department so that's a good thing.
               What sucks the most, and perhaps this is why I'm writing this blog, is that I'm not putting the time into my art. I'll spend twelve hours in a cab but won't make time to write a new paragraph or write a new song. Out of the three thngs I said I was upset over Money is the only one that's not in my control right now. So time to buck up and stop being a whiney hypocrite!
               Baby steps fucker! It's the only way to get out of a rut, or so I've found in my own life. I took a step last night by going to Stand Up Scottsdale and hanging out with the other comics. Good people, all with the similar desires and that's to be better than they are. They have determination and I can see the sacrifice in their eyes, even more so the look of satisfaction after they've left the stage. It's the energy in my own life that I forget to pay attention to. Hanging out at the club if a friendly reminder to myself that I am an artist but more so a performer and with out that time on a stage my life tends to go off the rails.
               That and some of the comedians are even remembering my name so let's give it up for progress eh?
               The next baby step I took was writing this blog! One of the ideas that I've taken from the twelve step program is being aware of isolation, as when we get trapped in our won skulls we lose perspective on reality. So this is me opening up and letting you all know I'm getting in gear!
               Ok enough of all of that, tomorrow the 29th we have a great podcast for you! We all have a family history, a series of events that make a trail leading right to your very present.The previous part or element of that past is our parents. You know them as Mom and Dad. Tomorrow I sit down not with Mom but with Margarita and ask her about her story, her youth, her struggles and more so her relationship with her mom. It's a great perspective and even more so a great story and I know you're just going to dig it!
                Till nest time Party People,
                 Keep on a Chooglin!

Thursday, July 4, 2013

Crushed by Candy...or ...Enough with the Requests Already

Crushed by Candy,
            Confusion takes a stranglehold of the young girls breath as she tries to open her eyes and sees only the darkness.
            Darkness is the onlything that seems to be constant at the moment. Her little fingers rub her eyes and once again she ties to open her eye lids only to find the same darkness that surrounded her when her eyes were closed.
             Silence is the next feeling that makes itself known to her, it's quiet in this darkness, her fear gives way to memories from what she thinks was a few days ago. Mommy and Daddy were yelling again. She hated when they did that.
            "It's not my fault!", Mommy would yell to Daddy.
            "You think I don't want her back too?", Daddy would sneer toward Mommy.
             She knows they was a time when they were all laughing but she can't remember about what, she only knows there was once a time they were happy.
             Then she remembered she was once happy, she thinks back to when she was running in the backyard. She loved playing in the dirt, sometimes she would find squiggly bugs that Mommy called "warns" or something that sounded like that. Here favorite part of the day was when she heard a big machine pull into the front yard and moments later Daddy would come walking in the door. He always swooped down to pick her up and give her and Mommy hugs and kisses. Some days he would have candies in his pocket to give her, those days were always special because Mommy would sigh then chuckle,"You're going to spoil her with all that candy Dear."
             "Just some sweets for the two most sweetest gals in the world!", Daddy would reply.

            She starts to feel sad, for a moment she can see those special days in front her like an tv show. The darkness starts to give way to the light of the memories of her and her parents. She reaches out to touch her Mommy and the vision turns from what looked like a tv show , to a picture, then into vapor that seeps into a little heart shaped locket that lays at her feet. She picks up the shiney locket and holds it to her heart. A tear comes down her cheek," I want my Mommy."
            Light rises from the horizon revealing something...wonderful! There are mountains and fields all filled with such pretty flowers! As the light of the world moves closer and closer she can see all the bright colors in everything around her. There is a bush near by that looks like it has roses, as she walks closer and closer she saw somethingg strange. The flowers she thought were roses were really cupcakes! She couldn't believe it!
             Everywhere she looked there was candy and cake! It was a young child's paradise. A friendly voice echoed from above her. It was a very tall man dressed in bright colors. He tells her that a world of fun and adventure awaits her. All she has to do is follow the path to the end ad he'll get everything she's always dreamed of! She tucks the locket into her pocket and skips down the path eating candy all the way!
            Some where in a children's hospital, a mother and father weep over their child who is hooked up to a life support machine," I want my baby back", the Mother cries.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Some things you can never go back to.

Evening Party People,
       I hope this month finds you well as you read this. As for me I have many things moving in all sorts of directions, some up some down but all in motion.
       It's Wednesday night and so far this week I've done two open mics. That's better than where I was a few months ago but I need to do more. That's not me being down on myself it's just a fact. It's kind of like exercising's exactly like exercising the  more I think about it. If you have a goal of what you want your body to look like and you're about 50 lbs off then working out twice a week isn't going to cut it. The same goes for my stand up....shit I need to work out more too.><
       You ever have a fond memory of a place you've been to? Maybe it's a meadow that you played in as a child, or maybe it's a bar you and your buddies used to hang out at, what about the job you had when you first realized that you were living on your own and for the first time felt a little like an adult? I have these places too, for the most part I fear going back to those specal places because I'm afraid that the magic it once held for me wont be there when I return, and for the most part it wont.
        Those place in space in time only live in our hearts and minds, the same could be said about relationships with people. I met an old friend tonight , someone who was, for a short period of time, a close friend....meaning that we spent a lot of time together due to proximity. During that time of my life I felt there were few people I could relate with and this person was one of them. This friendship was one of those things that held a special place for me. I know this sounds sappy but it's true. When we spoke tonight it was fun and pleasant and by no means a negative experience but there was something that seemed a bit off. I think I have a selfish notion where I want people to stay the same , that way I'll always have those special feeling with me that'll last forever. It's funny, I never thought how ugly that sounded until I wrote it.
         I was bummed about it all for a few minutes then I started thinking of other relationships and friendships that have gone the same route. My ex-wife comes to mind, or my best friend back in high school. Both very important people for that place and time but like any special moment in life they pass into memory, and that's a beautiful thing.
         I'm trying to be a better person and one of the ways I'm doing this is by pulling any fault of mine out into the open. It's not about what I don't have anymore, it's about what I have as well as had. While I'll be sad from time to time about the passing of these people,places and times I'll work at being grateful that I had them at all. Who we are isn't just built by some uncontrollable roll of the genetic dice but by each moment we feel and see. Then once all those building blocks have been set it's up to us to make the most out of what life has given us, a challenge to each of us with varying degrees of difficulty, but in the end , regardless of the struggle, we all reach the same peak.
         I'm happy that I saw my friend tonight, and being happy is good enough.

Till next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Morning Party People!    
            It's 1 am and it's safe to say tat there is no way in hell I'd be able to drive a cab in the morning. So if I'm not going to work then I need to get to work on something else.
            As far as an update for my Kickstarter goes I think it's safe to say that it's dead in the water. No regrets mind you, I've learned a lot over the past month and I see the whole thing as an educational win.
            So what else is new?
            I have a new job! Well a part time gig but new at any rate. I'm a cook at Stand-Up Scottsdale which so far has been pretty cool. The way I see it it's like I'm getting paid to go to school. Also in a round about way it all feels like I'm on the fringe of showbiz. There's the Producers,Directors,Talent,tech crew,promotion people,radio and 15 more steps down the list lies Comedy Club cook. I'm on the list!
            I've been trying to do at least two sets a week of stand-up. I find that working on a set is far different than working on a song, a song you can record and hear if it sounds good or not, a joke you can only tell if it's good after you've performed it in front of an audience, hence the classic advice, "You just got to keep going up".
            Such is life right?
Till next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Hey who wants to be paid for their art?

Evening/Morning Party People!
          It's 12:30am right now as I click away on these keys. I should be going to bed now but here I am plugging away. I took a day off today, I felt guilty about not working the entire time that I should have been resting. Why am I so beat?
          I have a lot of things going on at this moment. I have a new job cooking at a comedy club in Scottsdale, I still work at a U-Haul center and when I'm not doing that I'm driving a cab. Then there's the  time I spend putting into my comedy act, that in itself has been rough as I still don't know what my act should be about. I know people say it should be about my point of view and stuff but Holy Crap is it tough to put a point of view on stage while being honest and of course funny. Then of course when I'm not doing that I'm writing Dark Secrets:Frankie's Story as well as promoting my kickstarter.
          I'm lucky I have a gal who is so supportive in my efforts, seriously not anybody can stand by me the way she has.
          This has nothing to do with the title so far, what gives?
          You're right, sorry about that. Ok the question is "Who here wants to get paid for their creative efforts?"
          We all do right? Of course! So how do we go about doing so? Boy I wish there was one straight answer to that question. So far this is what I've learned.
          - I've had to maintain a level of confidence that  I could produce something worth of value.
          - Once I'd done this I found it was easier to name a price on my next project.
          - Try to find people who understand the value of creativity.
          - Show people the value of creativity in a modest way that informs, not berates (This is tough for me sometimes)
          - Keep plugging away!
           I see you're goal on your kickstarter project is over 2k, what gives?
          I've always felt that sometimes you need to put out what you want to get back. Meaning I've always wanted to perform in a gritty drama, no one is going to just invite me to work on one so I wrote one myself. I'd love to get paid for an audio drama but I'm not aware of any in my area so I'm trying to make one. You see the 2K is for paying the talent, the engineer, and converting my living room into a sound studio.
          Talent =4, I don't count myself as one of the paid talent so I need money for three. The story is going to be over an hour in total so I'll need close to 30 hours per actor. The actors have bills to pay and I would never ask someone to give up a days pay for a favor to me. I figure about $100 bucks a day, industry people would tell me that I'm paying them peanuts.
          Engineer =1. The engineer will be working on this project about as much as I will. I expect to put 90-100 hours into the production, so at about $10 bucks an hour the engineer will walk away with a little over a grand.
          Sound studio . I'll be doing this via home depot and target. I'll need pads, mics, and a bunch of pvc pipe to get this done. I'm hoping to do this for a few hundred.

          So how does this pertain to me?
          To you personally? It probably doesn't, lets be honest. However it pertains a great deal to our community of creatives. No one is going to come along and just hand us what we want. The industry does put out some great pieces of work but at the same time it pumps out a lot of crap. So it's up to us to back the things we like, the stories we like, the music we like, the books and movies we like. Otherwise they tend to go away.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Dark Secrets:Frankie's Story

        As is the case with all writers or artists if you will, there comes upon a time where an idea or story strikes a chord in our souls so deeply that we can't help but want to share it with as many people as possible.
        This story is about the Frankie, a bartender home from WWII who hasn't been able to sleep in two weeks. Night after night when he tries to sleep he is filled of visions of his long lost love Roxie begging him to come save her. Our story picks up when Frankie can't take the visions anymore and he goes out into the night searching for her. What happened to her? Where is she now?
        The closer Frankie gets to Roxie the more he finds out that the visions weren't just figments of his imagination, in fact his visions were far more...sinister.

        If I had to name a few inspirations for this story I'd have to say that the writing style of the new Battlestar Galactica was a big influence. Ron D Moore did such an amazing job at the character arcs in that storyline, it was truly an inspiration to watch. This next one might sound silly but Chris Avellone and his team of writers on the game Knights of the Old Republic II:Sith Lords really broke a lot of the walls that I had about storyline structure as well as character perception. If you can get your hands on the game I highly recommend it, the whole feeling of not knowing who to trust is a unique experience for a game, or even a movie or anything else for that matter! Last but not least would be the film Casablanca! Humphrey Bogart's Rick was the first anti-hero that struck a chord with me. There's something about watching a character go against his own interests or desires for something greater than himself. It stories like these that make me feel glad I'm an artist, so this is what I'm trying to make for all of you.

       I was talking to my cousin Jim awhile back and we were thinking of trying to make this story into a short film. Obviously this genre would lend itself well to film, it's been done before, it'll be done again. However I feel that we tend to lose some of the personal experience from a story like this when we "watch" it, listening to it in the realm of audio makes you a participant as well as a spectator, much like video games from people like Cliff Blazinski, Hideo Kojima or Hironobu Sakaguchi.

       I'm hoping that people who see this page and who read this post see something more than just some artist posting about his kickstarter. I'm not just about donations, it's about will and what we want out of this world. I often ask myself this question when I look outside every morning,"Is this the best we can do?" Is it? I think one way we can change our world is by pushing the boundaries of what we see and feel. Music does this for us, so does film, this is similar , only you'll be a part of it!

Thanks for your time Everybody!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Into the Great Wide Open!

Evening Party People!
          Well it was bound to happen at some point. For years I've been calling myself an Artist, it was only a matter of time when I'd get to a point and put something big out into the world. So here's me on the precipice of failure and glory and I've never been happier! I present to you my Kickstarter Project Dark Secrets:Frankie's Story
          I would ask of all my friends out there in the internets to lend a hand. While I wouldn't expect everyone to back this project I would appreciate it if you could share this link once a week or so on your Facebook or Twitter Feeds. Yes something that simple could make a big difference whether this project gets funded or not.
          I will searching down other avenues such as seeking out blogs or pages that deal with independent theater or old radio dramas and seeking backers there. So please don't think that I'm trying to rest this burden on your shoulders. As it is I'm just trying to get in touch with every facet that I have.
         Did I mention that I've been doing stand-up? I did two sets this week so far. One I did ok on, the other I ate a shit sandwich on stage. It goes with the territory I suppose. It would be nice if I killed every time I went up but if I did then I don't think I would learn anything. I think I feel the same way about this project. I know I'm in a learning phase at this point in my life.
         What do I mean about a learning phase? I mean that I'm in unfamiliar waters, I'm scared, I'm vulnerable. I felt the same way when I first moved to New York. I knew I was going to get my ass kicked but I also knew that I was going to come out on the other end stronger than I ever was before. Well here I am again!
          It's been a tough year, stepping away from the security that I had at HMS Host was not easy. For months I fought the urge to call and beg for my old job back. I had to hock my guitar, both of my amps and even my video camera. I think if it wasn't for Jennie I might have given up long ago. I can trace everything that she had done for me in one moment. We were driving home and I said that I thought I should go back to work at the airport and she said," I don't care if we have money, if we have to be poor in order for you to make your dreams come true then I think itt's totally worth it."
         What a gal eh? What a life indeed!
          Till next time Party People,
          Keep on a Chooglin!

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Vroom Vroom!....can someone give me a push?

Morning Party People!
                It's 1am and I just finished writing out the script for my current project which is.....::drum roll please::a kickstarter project for Frankie's Story!!
                That's right Party People , I'm taking the next baby step. I know this isn't the same as pitching a script to a studio but hey, it's a new world and I think Kickstarter could be a good thing for my story. I'll be filming the video tomorrow and hopefully I'll have it edited before I leave for the Open mic later that evening.
                Speaking of which, I think I'm getting better at the open mics out hear. That's not to say I've been killing, I haven't but I feel that every time I go up I learn more and get just a little bit better. One of my goals this years is to get a paying gig doing stand up, for how much? Who knows? All I know is that as much as I dig my part time work I know I don't want to spend the whole year doing either job.
                I was talking to Jennie earlier today about how one of my faults is I don't appreciate all the things I have in my life and that I try to show some sort of gratitude everyday. I was just thinking about how I wish I had been this motivated when I was in my twenties, maybe by now I'd be a professional actor or stand-up or whatever. What does it matter? If I had spent my twenties differently (or more productively for that matter) then I wouldn't be the artist that I am today. Meaning if I had started getting work acting right out of AMDA I don't know if I would have ever taken up writing. Had I not come to AZ back in 1999 I never would have met my friend Clay who got me into painting ,photography, and playing the guitar. With out those skills I never would have learned video editing so I guess in the end it all works out the way it's supposed to right?
                 I find looking back like that gives me solace in the choices I made. Give it a try sometime, only don't listen to The Cure while you do it, just trust me on this one.

Till Next Time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

::hic:: Um, you bet!

Evening Party People!
             Tonight's blog is sponsored in part by Kilt Lifter.
"Kilt Lifter Scottish Ale: Because F@*K that bitch who needs her!"

           So what's new? Well I finally have a new job. It's nothing too exciting but it's something that I've been looking forward to for a few years now. I now have a part time entry level position working at a uhaul rental center. It's awesome because I know nothing about that business and I have zero ambition to advance in that company! It's not a bad place to work by any means, as a matter of fact everyone has been super cool. I just now have a job that wont pull focus away from my other projects.
           Everyday is a great day to get something done! Now I seem to have an issue on keeping to a schedule which involves exercise, writing, music, entertainment and of course video editing. I think I'm going to have to start making a weekly schedule so I can keep on track. That or I have to get rid of my xbox.
           I've been getting a lot done when I don't have to go into my job, I feel better that's for sure, emotionally anyways. Physically I need to lose a bunch of weight, not that being thin will make me feel better, I just don't like not being as strong as I used to be. You see for a big guy like myself one of the few saving graces of being large is that you're more than likely stronger than people smaller than you (non athletes of course). As I get older I find that I can't do as much as I used to, I learned that my first week at uhaul as there is a lot of physical work in that job. There's a gym near by that's free for people who live in the community, maybe I should start there?
            It looks like I have a new habit to form, this is going to be tough as I hate not being able to east large amounts of candy at any given point in time. Oh well, tat way of living has never brought me the happiness I was looking for, all it did was give my the "happy" that I'd settle for.
            Another motivation is that my girlfriend has been losing a lot of weight, and if there's one thing I learned from watching all those weight loss shows, is that f your gal loses weight and you don't SHE WILL LEAVE YOUR FAT ASS!!!
            ON A NON WEIGHT RELATED ISSUE....HEY DID I LEAVE THE CAPS ON on? On a non weight issue I've been writting a lot more, most specifically the radio drama from a few years back. With any luck there might be some big news for the rest of the show coming up.
            As much as I'd like to sit here all day and write, there's an eliptical machine I need to hit up.
Till next time Party People!!!
Keep on a Chooglin!!!

Sunday, January 13, 2013

The Starving Battle , or Why I love Gun violence!!

What's Shaking my fellow Americans and cants!
              It's that time of the year again, election season is apon us, or at least according to the memes on Facebook it is!
              Wait? It isn't? The election was over months ago? If that's the case why do I keep seeing words like socialist pass by my feed every other post? I thought we were over being against each other on a philosophical nature and were back to just being Americans.
              I guess not, what are we fighting about anyways? Oh yes , guns. Gun control, gun laws,gun rights, and while you're at it get off my lawn hippie. Ok I get there are some real differences in how we all feel about this but can we get back to what we do agree on? I'm pretty sure that even the most die hard gun owner doesn't want to see a bunch of innocent people get shot up. I'm also pretty sure that there are a bunch of responsible gun owners who doesn't want there rights trampled on because of a bunch of a-holes can't handle their shit.
               So why can't we get past this? I think it's because once again the powers that be found out that they can use a wedge issue to amp up ratings and sales without an election going on. Do you get it? This means that angry achy feeling in your gut that comes up when the news talks about guns will NEVER GO AWAY!
               As long as the corporations who run the media outlets can keep us fighting each other we will never have any peace in our lives. Keeping us scared means keeping us glued to their networks. If we stay glued to their networks they can keep selling ad time. As long as that ad money rolls in then it makes sense to keep us all scared!
               It's the same shit over and over again. Shit I even seen two posts about Jane Fonda this week and how much every American should hate her. You know what I rarely see on Facebook? This story:

               I just want to pull my hair out sometimes ><

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Red Light Martial Arts: Cracking wise while cracking skulls!

Concerning my next project,

                       A little bit about my current project. I'm doing a promo video for Red Light Martial Arts in downtown Phoenix! It's a great dojo that has just about everything you need if you wish to condition your body for strength and speed. Nick Edmonds runs the dojo along with this .
                       I've studied martial arts in my youth, and to be honest it's something that I really miss. I miss learning something new, I miss pushing myself physically, I miss that satisfaction of knowing that my body is improving and getting stronger.  That's why I've started with some Tai Chi classes on Saturdays. Drop in classes ae only 15 bucks a class I believe but for those who wish to dedicate more time than just once a week there are contracts that will suit your needs.
                      Nick is a guy who dedicates his life to pushing himself as far as he can go in his art, not only as a student but as a teacher as well. I find this to be an admirable quality when one is looking for a teacher and I invite you to check out his blog or even a class (if you live in Phoenix like I do). You won't be disappointed, unless you like to give up on shit on a regular basis, in that case you will be disappointed but not in Nick, just in you!  =P

The first week is over!

Morning Party People!
               Wow what a week it has been! Frankly this week has been kind of sucky or at least suck-like in it's content yet somehow I still feel positive about the future. Some of you may call that being delusional but I can that being an optimist...that might be delusional.
                I have had a cousin that had to go to the hospital, been scammed twice for a total of 90 bucks on a night shift, might be charged for some damage to a cab that I may or may not have done, and on top of all of that there are dishes in the sink that still need to be washed! I tell you it's raining anvils and the only thing there is for lunch today are shit sandwiches. Could you imagine if you work place actually served shit sandwiches to the staff? I mean they would have to keep them away from the other food items but everyday at the commecary you'd see that one employee at the end of the line...serving shit sandwiches.
               "Hey Bob, whose the guy on the end of the lunch counter, no one ever goes over there."
               "Well Tom, that's Mike. He's the guy who serves shit sandwiches."
                "Are you kidding me? Bob who the hell would ever buy a shit sandwich?"
               "That's the thing Tom, no one buys them, they find their way to you one way or another." Just then we hear a woman in the lunch room violently spit out her sandwich while screaming.
                OK, enough about snack food. How about some good news! The good news is that I have a great gal in my life, I have a new project that I'm working on which I hope to share with you all very soon. I have an interview for a new job next Wednesday so hopefully I won't be having to drive these cabs for very much longer. With anew job and stable income I can devote more time to things like performing music as well as comedy! I did another open mic this week and I even brought my cousin a long. I had such a blast just hanging out with the other comics and shooting the shit with my cousin that I barely noticed my time on stage. Incidentally I think I'm getting better at stand up, I have a long way to go but I can feel it in my gut that I'm getting better.
               Till Next time Party People,
               Keep on a Chooglin!