Saturday, March 30, 2019

I don't write as much as I used to and nowhere near as much as I should.

Evening Party People,

               It's been awhile since I've sat down and hit the keys hasn't it. I think in my ego I think perhaps one of you out there on the Internet is waiting for me to write something. Perhaps you connect with what I feel from time to time, maybe these silly blogs give you joy or perhaps just a little piece of mind.
               I bask in my ego for just a moment and realize that perhaps you aren't waiting for me to write something, I am. That part of me that's waiting is wearing a mask that has your face. It knows I crave an knows me so well. Strange that I don't at times.
               This next month is going to be a challenge, this time by choice. I'm calling it the DisJointed Challenge. In the month of April , I'm going to push my body to work out 15 times in 30 days. 5 workouts must be before work and 5 after work.
               I'm doing this because I want to see if I have what it takes to state a goal and follow through with it. I did a similar challenge of no video games in the month of February. I learned a bit about myself in that month so I'm excited about what I'll learn in April.

               My car seems to be working great now, one less excuse to not hit the open mics. I'm a little nervous about the scene, perhaps my perception of it isn't attuned to what it really is. Everyone has the best intentions of not wanting to offend anyone, which I think is a good thing. However in my view , the world doesn't always deserve to be treated nicely, no one does. That's not to say we shouldn't be nice to one another, I'm saying no one deserves to be treated nicely for no particular reason. The key word is "deserve".
               I think we as a species have forgotten how we got to this era, this time and place of our civilization. We live in a world where we don't treat people with special needs as being mentally ill. While we incarcerate way too many people, we don't don't execute people for minor crimes. Granted we love to watch a person's career and character be publicly executed, we don't hang people or behead them in a town square in America.
               While I think we have many lofty ideals about acceptance and tolerance, we forget that forgiveness is an essential part of moving past (or overcoming) our caveman dna. I think if we can't forgive , if we can't see our enemies with love and compassion, then I don't think it matters how many people are on "Our Side" , in the end we wont change a thing.
               Still stubborn, still vengeful, still clenching our first in the name of what's right, we just can't have nice things.

               Lucky for us, if we stand back a few steps from the world around us, turn the canvass and adjust our view, we can see how comical it all is. My favorite example is everyone hating Kanye for liking Trump and in the same week pretend to care about people suffering from mental illness. That's funny to me. I should save some of this for my act, just felt the need to reach out and say hello.

I hope you're doing well my friends, I really do.