tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-73353920220708344732024-02-22T02:27:33.821-08:00The DisJointed ViewThis is a blog for all things concerning DisJointed Productions LLC and it's owner.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger254125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-34343722239003352982023-02-20T12:13:00.001-08:002023-02-20T12:13:55.675-08:00In Defense of Velma...and comedy...sort of<iframe style="background-image:url(https://i.ytimg.com/vi/SGZgHsUqL1c/hqdefault.jpg)" width="480" height="270" src="https://youtube.com/embed/SGZgHsUqL1c" frameborder="0"></iframe>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-21441508662805781022022-10-20T15:08:00.002-07:002022-10-20T15:08:23.143-07:00Great Interview for beginning actors!<p> If your thinking of starting an acting career in ANYPLACE besides reality tv, check out this interview I did with Sanette Wilson and Marlon Hargrave <a href="https://youtu.be/c09wH-6CyTs" target="_blank">here!</a></p><p>https://youtu.be/c09wH-6CyTs</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-11334260666889069882021-06-15T18:50:00.001-07:002021-06-15T18:52:12.374-07:00Catch up on the latest DisJointed Podcast!<p> I'f you haven't checked out my podcast , you can check it out <a href="https://www.spreaker.com/episode/45180813" target="_blank">here</a></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-14337085417180552872021-05-07T09:31:00.003-07:002021-05-07T09:31:32.762-07:00A thought comes to mind...<p> Morning Party People,</p><p><span> As I write this is's around 10 am on a Friday morning . Two nights ago I deleted all the games on my PS4 as well as my computer. I feel the need to spend more time with my mind and thoughts instead of focusing them on things other than themselves. At this point in my life I'm also thinking more about my diet as well as my mental health.</span><br /></p><p><span><span> A few days ago my friend Bear told me that he can sense the misery radiating off of me. Like my anger enters the room before I do. The moment the words hit my ears I could feel my eyes start to tear up. In the past that's always been a sign that truth is radiating in me. I had to take a moment to force myself not to be defensive about it, even more proof that he had. apoint. I don't know why crying was one of my first instincts , it was a throwback to my 20's, back then I had constructed a world in my mind thinking that no one cared about me. That was a fallacy of course but I was nuts back then and for some reason that was easier to believe in than a world where people did care about me. I think that lie was easier to believe than the truth that I didn't care about me. </span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> So then the work was clear,"Why are you so miserable Dave?"</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> I started to make a list of the focal points of my life and if they were making me happy or not.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> - Jennie? Happy</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> - Comedy? Happy but could be better.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> - Health? Not Happy, </span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> - Day Job? Really not happy.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> - Family? Not as close as I should be, but happy.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> - Personal Growth and creativity? Neglected so not happy, however it's not making me sad.</span><br /></span></p><p><span> So from that list the one that sticks out is the day job. This week I took steps to improve that situation. If my plan works out, I wont see results for a month but even that has lifted a weight off my shoulders. The next was health, my weight being the biggest part of it. </span><br /></p><p><span><span> A few years back when I was working at Old Chicago, I got down to 285. I know that's a lot but I have been over 300 lbs for quite some time, so 285 was a big achievement for me. Then when I started working in an office, I had gained 75 lbs. The weird thing was for a big chunk of that time I was going to the gym every other day. I felt helpless, like I had a disease that is going to keep me fat no matter what I do. I know there are a lot of body positivity people out there who think there is nothing wrong with being fat but I'm not one of those people. To me it's not living up to my potential, it's neglecting a responsibility.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> This week Ethan Suplee was on The JRE podcast and spoke about his weightloss journey. One of the many things he said that resonated with me was Ethan having to ask himself why he chose to make choices that were so unhealthy for him? So I asked myself, why do I choose to eat in a way that will hurt me in the long run? Don't get me wrong, when I eat candy or anything sweet, I'm not thinking,"Fuck you Dave, eat this ice cream!" So there must be something else going on.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> There are a few parts to this, but if I was going to do reduce the whole issue into one word, it would be "Control".</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> I'm afraid my anger will be let loose and I'll hurt people. If you're fat and out of shape, you won't be able to hurt anyone.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> People tell me I'm too fat growing up, I can't confront them . What I can do is say no by not doing what they tell me do and gain weight. I know fat shaming can motivate some people but in my case it had the opposite effect.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> When I started the catering position/office job. I felt that nothing I ever did was good enough and I was always being critiqued on everything I did. My weight was never an issue but I think seeing as it was something I did have control of, I choose to eat like shit.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span> In many of those cases, my inability at the time to confront the issue at hand made me regress to my childhood tactic of using the one form of control I had in my life, which was what food I ate. It was like drinking poison and hoping the other person will die. So as these feeling reveal themselves from my subconscious to the. conscious, let us see how I can use them to better myself.</span><br /></span></p><p><span>Till next time Party People, Keep on a Chooglin'</span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-17987876828772090742021-02-12T12:33:00.002-08:002021-02-12T12:33:46.193-08:00My thoughts on the whole Gina Carano situation.<p> Hello Party People,</p><p><span> So I've been upset over the past few days over the whole Gina Carano situation. I've been fighting the urge to take to social media and voice my opinion but then I thought, why don't I just go outside and start swinging punches into the void as I throw kicks into the night. All those options are futile and comical to say the least.</span><br /></p><p><span><span> I've seen many people on my timeline cheer for Disney not moving forward with the Cara Dune character. I've also seen it worded differently. An example would be that "Disney will not move forward with any project with Gina Carano" which has one effect. The other would be a kin too ,"Disney fires Gina Carano for abhorrent social media tweets." which gets a much different reaction. So who do I believe?</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span><span> I went on her twitter page and scrolled for a few minutes and couldn't find anything offensive. Then I read that the tweets in question were removed. I did see one post where (to me) she was talking about a society that was turned on each other and as a result many people were killed. She used the treatment of the Jewish people in Germany to which some people took even more offense to that. I'm sure that there are other examples that people have but I have to admit, there's something underneath all of this that is really troubling me.</span><br /></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span> Before I go forward, I must tell you that as of this writing, I'm still not sure what's pissing me off so much. Here's what I do know.</span><br /></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span> - There seemed to be a concerted effort to attack Gina Carrano from a month or so back. Another faceless internet mob going after a celebrity. I can go either way on this one, let's be honest, there a shit ton of famous people who get talked into "Using their voice" by people who no one would ever want to listen to. Sometimes it a great thing to behold, most of the time it isn't.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span> - Disney seems to be able to dictate an actors behavior and expression even when they're not working. This is a huge grey area, inside of an enigma, that's perched on a slippery slope. I remember a company in Arizona who refused to hire anyone who smoked cigarettes. From what I remember, this wasn't just for people who were working on the clock, but it applied to their employees when they weren't at work. There was a big debate on the company policy but the general question was ,"Does the company you work for have control over what you do in your free time?" I think the big difference between Disney and any other company is that Disney has the element of publicity to deal with. Even so, I would be conflicted if someone offered me fame and money but I have to stop being who I am. For the record, anyone who would walk away from a dream job to keep their integrity has heart to say the least.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> - There are a bunch of fake ass artists on my page that will cheer for someones demise over their beliefs. It's their right to express themselves for sure, I just wish they'd stop pretending to be an artist. When other people think of artist stereotype, it's one of a weak willed, emotionally fragile person that needs someone to take care of them because they're too sensitive to handle the real world....maybe that's just my view of most artists, maybe that's my fear of what I might become? The point is, a true artist has the conviction to stand for what they believe in, no matter how batshit crazy it might be. There were too many of my fellow artists on my feed who were cheering on this whole event, to which I just unfriended. I wish them the best but the main reason I stay in contact with so many artists on my Facebook page was to hopefully work with them further on down the road. Well I don't want to to work with them anymore. Integrity means a lot to me.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> - There is a level of hypocrisy that I'm not sure people are seeing (or maybe I'm reading too much into it). You know if you want want strong women with conviction in this world, there's a chance they're not going to think the way you want them to think, right? On one hand there are a bunch of people who were really all,"Yaas Queen" over the Cara Dune character, while at the same time there were people wanting Gina Carano to shut up and keep her thoughts to herself. I know they're not the same thing but you have to admit, the whole situation is odd.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> In the end, I'm caught up in a whirlwind of emotion to which nothing good could come of. I know a woman like Gina Carano doesn't need a guy to stand up and defend her. I know the character of Cara Dune reminded me a lot of the strong women I grew up around and learned from. I know that I'm bummed that there wont be any more stories with her in it. </span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> At the end of the day, there were two great seasons of The Mandalorian, which were two more than I really expected there to be. The good times I had watching that show with my wife can never be taken away and for that, I'm grateful.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span>Till next time Party People,</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span>Keep on a Chooglin!</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-90782775951033794632021-01-22T21:23:00.001-08:002021-01-22T21:23:34.936-08:00The Mansplaining Ship has left the Harbor!<p> Evening Party People,</p><p><span> I'm finally putting my creative money where my </span>metaphysical mouth is.... or something like that. I wanted to let you all know that the first Episode of Mansplaining with Jacob and Dave is officially out in the internet!</p><p> We broadcast it live on Twitch every Thursday at 9 (the Seinfeld slot sun!). You can follow my channel at <a href="http://twitch.tv/disjointeddave">twitch.tv/disjointeddave</a> and get notifications when we go live.</p><p><span> Or you can watch clips of our show on You Tube</span></p><p><span> </span><a href="https://youtu.be/yVaj2dgegtg">https://youtu.be/yVaj2dgegtg</a></p><p> Lastly, you can download the audio <a href="https://www.spreaker.com/episode/43059292" target="_blank">podcast</a> on Spreaker, Spotify, and hopefully iTunes and Stitcher in the future.<br /></p><p><span><span> It's taken me a long time to get the courage to create something like this show, a show that once you get past the </span>bombast and spectacle of manliness, caries a message that we hope young men will listen to. Thanks for sticking with me this far.</span></p><p><span>Till Next time Party People,</span></p><p><span>Keep on a Chooglin'</span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-67506815282862949732020-12-21T20:54:00.002-08:002020-12-21T21:11:04.274-08:00Another First Step Forward, Another Step Further from Home<p><br /> Evening Party People,</p><p><span> As I write this, it's 9:34 PM on a Monday here in Denver Colorado. I was planning to take a day off tomorrow but the gods of the Day Job have summoned me once again to be at work at 7 in the morning. I half expected it as I was trying to work my Restaurant Magic to summon business.</span><br /></p><p><span><span> This morning I had to go to Sam's Club to pick up some supplies for work. As I was walking past the gift section I saw a Yamaha Keyboard with a stand for a decent price. I've felt impulse buys before but something told me I had to get this as opposed to me really wanting it. Was it an impulse to spend? Was I trying to feel </span>fulfilled via a new toy?</span></p><p><span><span></span></span></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><span><span><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEidWfpat5HcRd47GubwYp-jGUK9P5fZEvUYd6CLsJgCitEb7eQry9kwPnAuu1zk5tZPSLKJgsxyaQRx32vMqbFL-rh0lKrondGsH05eCZkPvOOcLUXG62Kt3d8sg10MEqZ0XgrPRIwfB4Ep/s2048/IMG_0745.HEIC" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1536" data-original-width="2048" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEidWfpat5HcRd47GubwYp-jGUK9P5fZEvUYd6CLsJgCitEb7eQry9kwPnAuu1zk5tZPSLKJgsxyaQRx32vMqbFL-rh0lKrondGsH05eCZkPvOOcLUXG62Kt3d8sg10MEqZ0XgrPRIwfB4Ep/s320/IMG_0745.HEIC" width="320" /></a></span></span></div><span><span> I've felt that many times before but this time there was no rush, no euphoria, just a feeling of completion. Like this was a step I have been needing to take for quite sometime. I've felt for awhile that my fear or singing in public has been a weak spot in my armor for a long time. I think it was because it was the first time I had failed in front of a crowd before. It was like sparring for the first time, that moment of terror when one realizes that they're not naturally gifted, that this won't come easy.</span></span><p></p><p><span><span><span> The sounds like a reasonable fear right? My problem was I wasn't used to that feeling when it happened. I was gifted at a fairly decent amount of things so the thought of me not being "good enough" never entered my mind. That's a dangerous place to be. Now I've failed before but when I do it's due to me not performing up to my skill level, which I know. When it comes to singing and music, I have no idea where my level is. So there is fear. A fear that even if I devote myself to music, that I still won't be any good, I won't be special. </span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span> Silly fear right? It is, if I look at it with reason. However, fear isn't always based in reason and as such, reason isn't always the best tool to undo this knot. In this case, the tool I must use is knowledge. I have to follow this path to see where the end is. I must know if I have anything to offer in this art. If I find out that I don't, at least I'll know and fear will have no power. If I find I have some talent but nothing "great", then at least I'll know. If I find I have the same energy in my acting and stand-up as I would in music, then I'll know.</span><br /></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span> So now I have this new tool in the Studio, which looks more like a studio than a bedroom with a computer in it. I'm happy with my choices, I'm happy with my life. At least for today I am, that's good enough for the time being. Tomorrow I will take a step creatively in another direction, should be an interesting journey.</span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span>Till Next Time Party People,</span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span>Keep on a Chooglin'</span></span></span></span></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-2501216845258479402020-12-01T22:13:00.004-08:002020-12-01T22:13:38.736-08:002020 Right?<p> What's Shakin Party People,</p><p><span> As I write this it's almost 11 PM here in Colorado . The wind is chilly outside, below freezing to be sure. It's the kind of cold where it should be snowing but it isn't, as if the world hasn't decided how wonderful or crappy your next morning is going to be.</span><br /></p><p><span><span> I'm writing on a new keyboard that went with the new computer I got yesterday. Could I afford it? Not really but I've been wanting a new computer to edit video with and thats exactly what I got. Now I have the tools I need....just need to actually make something now.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span><span> I have two podcasts scheduled to record coming up, that's a good step. However these baby steps are like a workout routine that my body has gotten used to, to the point that it doesn't do much good when I do it, but if I don't my ass gets way bigger. That's not a reason to stop obviously, just an acknowledgment that I need to step up the workout.</span><br /></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span> I know I've said this before but maybe I need to clarify it for myself. The next two projects I will start will be one of a Video. Those take a while to make, to plan, to re-plan, then to scrape the whole thing and start over.</span><br /></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span> The next one after that will be music related. I need to finish a song that I started many years ago. It's sappy but I think the reason I have such a hard time working on it, is that there's a piece of truth that I haven't reached yet, an honesty I haven't let go of yet that will show the way. This sounds lame but I've always felt that some songs have a life of their own and they won't enter this world until they find an artist that will tell it's story on it's terms. In that respect, that moment that created the song, that point in time that changed my heart, it has one or two more things to say before it can be made whole.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span> I've been looking for that "Next Level" in my art. It would be great if all I had to do was get super drunk and high and let the thoughts fly out of every hole in the Universe. One the other hand, might be worth a shot?</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> I know I'd like to spend a day with some mushrooms and see what happens. My friends have had some interesting results with them. If I do get some magic mushrooms I'll be sure to let you all know how it went.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> I know this is a short blog but it's late and I need to get some sleep, you should do the same .</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> Till Next Time Party People, Keep on a Chooglin'</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-70347539819278985852020-11-15T21:40:00.006-08:002020-11-15T21:40:52.648-08:00No one Likes a quitter!<p> Evening Party People.</p><p><span> As I write this week's blog entry, it's 10 AM on a Sunday. I'm not sure if I had a productive day or if I should have just enjoyed my time. I found I spent a part of my day worrying about my day job. Every time I do I think about how I use my day job as a distraction (or form of resistance) that keeps me from creating. I'm getting better at catching myself when I do so, however that doesn't change the position I find myself in. Ah Covid, when will you stop bringing out the worst in us all?</span></p><p><span><span> On a more positive note, my Onnit Kettle bell came in last week and this was the first week I used it! That's right, 5 out of 7 days I was swinging this thing around in the studio working up a sweat and dragging my heart rate kicking and screaming into the far burning zone! I count this week as a success on that front of my plan. I gave myself a good example of how I feel after I workout. I used to feel this way when I had a gym membership but that was a while back. It feels good to feel good again. Now I need to keep this same pace for one more week before I add any new aspect to these workouts. The art of encouraging one's self without enabling it is a tricky balance. The only way I've been able to tell is by being brutally honest on how I feel about myself.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span><span> Now on to why I named this week's entry the way I did. I'm quitting smoking once again. Or I'm going off my break of the last time I quit. Either way you put it, I'm requiting smoking..? I had quit for a year and then I started falling off the wagon around the time of the first lockdown. I had gone back to a pack a day for about three weeks now, before that I was buying a bunch of the Prime Time single smokes with the fruit flavors on the filter. If you're not sure which one's those are, they're the cigs you would give to a kid. Either way, I've been smoking and I don't want to. Why? The short answer is 85. That's the age I want to make it to. </span><br /></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span> I turn 45 in December and I'm starting to doubt the amount of time I have left on this world. My Father died when he was in his 50's and now, more than ever, I'm getting closer and closer to the day I say, I'm older than my father was. All I know is I want my time hear to mean something, I want what I've always wanted. To be a part of the Human Story and be a part that made this world a little better than how I found it. </span><br /></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span> This plan that I've started to take that big step is getting closer and closer. With every word I write, for every workout I do. I'm trusting myself just a little bit more and more. It's like giving myself an affirmation that's more than just lip service.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span> </span>I should have a new podcast up by tomorrow afternoon, if you haven't already, please check out the podcast and subscribe to it wherever you listen to podcasts.</span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span> Till next time Party People, keep on a Chooglin!</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-15081315786185826832020-11-07T00:45:00.002-08:002020-11-07T00:45:20.150-08:00Latest DisJointed Podcast Episode!<p> You can listen to the most recent episode on Spreaker <a href="https://www.spreaker.com/episode/41765196" target="_blank">here</a>. You can also find me on iTunes , Stitcher, Spotify, or anywhere you listen to podcasts!</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-68660189098064062282020-11-07T00:42:00.001-08:002020-11-07T00:42:33.410-08:00It's Time to Start Planning my Exit from My Day Job.<p> What's shakin' Party People,</p><p><span> </span>At this moment in time it's 1:00 AM here in Denver. I have my laptop, my music (tonight's choice is Radical Face: The Branches), I have some tea and I'm ready to write.</p><p><span> </span>I just finished watching the Documentary series of The Comedy Store in LA. If you've read my past blogs you'll remember that Jennie and I went there to watch Kill Tony. The series is split into 5 parts and I burned through 4 of them the first evening. If you're a comic and your serious about your art, I'd recommend this series. Watching the store grow through the decades as well as the comics who came through there was inspirational.</p><p><span> </span>As I watched the series I kept thinking about the one night I was there. There was no seating inside the club so we had to sit in the parking lot and watch the show on a tv. The only time I spent inside was to go to the bathroom, even still, just walking in the hallway I could feel the energy of all the greats, all my comedy heroes who walked down the same hall. I know that sounds hokey, perhaps it is. I've seen celebrities before, I lived in New York and I had seen many celebrities walking down Broadway on a daily basis. (I still owe Rosie O'Donnell an apology) </p><p><span> </span>This wasn't like that though, this feeling I had, it was like hearing a familiar voice calling from the darkness. Not from any distant shore, someplace closer, someplace forgotten, it came from inside the dreams of my youth, the dreams of a sixteen year old kid who knew he was going to be a star!</p><p><span> </span>You ever give up on a dream but you forgot to tell yourself ? That's what I felt like walking through those halls. That's what I felt when we drove down Sunset Blvd, that's the wonderful agony I felt when we drove past Warner Brother's Studios. It was finding a piece of me that I set aside, that night i found it and I feel so much more of myself than I have in years.</p><p>Meanwhile back at the ranch...</p><p><span> </span>Oh life, how dare you let me use so much of you as an excuse not to live you? Earlier this year I accepted a position at my job that was way more responsibility than I wanted yet not so much where I couldn't accept it. As of writing this blog, many restaurants are on the brink of failing, many of us who have been manning the helm are tired and we want it to end. I'd complain more but I know there are many people who don't even have a job...that doesn't make mine suck any less though.</p><p><span> </span>I have a hunch that once Christmas comes and goes, that will be the end of my job. The thing that worries me isn't not having a job, it's having another job that I use as an excuse not to live the life I wanted. Don't get me wrong, I've had a lot of great things come from my employment, I've learned a lot about selling, a lot about money, and even better, how to be successful and thrive instead of just survive.</p><p><span> </span>So now after all these years about talking about making that journey from a 9-5 life to one of creativity, I think I'm ready to take that step. Now to make a plan!</p><p><span> </span>I'm not going to jump off the cliff into the darkness without gathering the right tools first. First step Money!</p><p>- I need to make sure I have a few months worth of rent before I do this, luckily I have a great paying job and I have my car paid off, which allows me to save. So no PS5 for me this holiday season.</p><p><span> </span>Step two, health!</p><p>- To be marketable for any acting rolls I'd want to do, I need to be in better health. Meaning not fat. This isn't so I can be accepted by the world, I'm doing this because I hate most of the characters that are played by fat guys. so I've bought a kettle bell which is a good start. I'll also work on the Wim Hoff breathing method to help recovery. I might even break out the DDP Yoga one more time. The point is, I have to prove to myself now that I can move toward a healthier me. I don't want to wait until my job is gone before I start working on my body. It's training for when I have open days, I don't want to waste time sitting in front of the computer pissing my day away. If I have more time to work on myself, I need to prove that I won't waste it.</p><p><span> </span>Step three, create!</p><p>- I need to not only work on comedy but podcasting as well as video editing. I might even add music back into the mix. The point is, I need to have already put a lot of time into improving all the aspects of my creativity and not wait until I have the time. I will make the time!</p><p><span> </span>Step four, stop writing this blog and get some sleep.</p><p><span> - Sorry I just realized how tired I am now.</span><br /></p><p><span>Till next time Party People, Keep on a Chooglin!</span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-46901988655035289162020-11-01T11:25:00.001-08:002020-11-01T11:25:49.568-08:00I think it's time to take a good look inward.<p> <span style="font-family: courier;">What's shakin' Party People?</span></p><p><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> At the time of this writing. I sit on a perch high above my own world. I come here time to time and try to see where I have gone wrong. I also look for ways that I share the mistakes of those whom I care for. If I'm feeling particularly masochistic, I look for the same mistakes that I made with people I don't care for at all.</span><br /></span></p><p><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> This is a difficult place to be, it's uncomfortable, it's agonizing, the fear of the pain it will bring far outweighs the benefit of facing it. In short, It's like being a Fat Guy who knows he needs to exercise but just doesn't want to. Normally my fat ass doesn't hurt anyone unless you're sitting next to me on the plane. It's strange isn't it? My life with all it's issues can exist just fine until I have to interact with someone else. That's more true than false the more I think about it. The same could be said about how I speak, how I feel, and more importantly how I act.</span><br /></span></span></p><p><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> You remember the kid in your neighborhood that grew up in a house with completely different set of rules than you did? Like their parents let the curse or choose what they wanted for dinner, They seemed liked they could do whatever they wanted while you lived in a version of prison with some G.I. Joe's to play with? They would be at your house to play and would do something that's normal at their house but is a hell worthy trespass in your house. Then you stuck in the middle of two worlds, both real, both have value, yet you're not sure which one to believe in. That's kind of how I feel when I pop in to look at my Facebook feed.</span><br /></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> If what I'm about to talk about makes no sense, I'd suggest that you go see the Netflix Doc, "The Social Dilemma". Watching this film seemed to put a finger on what I felt was going wrong in my life. I felt disconnected in my own world, I still do to a certain extent. I feel separated from my friends and family, I feel like I have to feel the same way they do on an issue or they won't like me anymore. In turn I have avoided talking to people who were friends because of views they had that I didn't share. So by no means am I innocent in this scenario. I think we're all villains, we're also all victims. We are the kind of victim that no one feels sorry for because we did this to ourselves. I mean you can feel bad for a person who discovered why they became an addict, as we all should. However , once they make a choice not to work on themselves, then I think it's best I save my sympathy for someone where it isn't a waste. For any young idealist reading this word jumble, I'd say to be cautious of a precious thing like a loving heart, there are thieves who will take it just so you don't have it. I'm getting off the subject that I wanted to talk about, sorry about that.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> In a few days, we will have a country divided , isolated, and furious. They have been watching what has been going on in their world, they watch the news, they have their finger on the pulse of what this world is all about. If that were true.....why didn't their guy win? How could this world be on the wrong side of history? It's obvious isn't it?</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> We are wrong. We're wrong on how we perceive the world, and we are defiantly completely wrong on how we think other people see the world. Notice I didn't say "You", I said "We". </span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> In times of struggle, humanity has always banded together to defeat an adversary, in this case , the adversary has already divided us so we can't use the very evolutionary tool that has given us the power to survive. Yet we must. We must survive. If any of you out there thinks if America collapses, it'll only effect us, you have another thing coming. We must survive, we must work to bridge the divide in all of us and it starts right at home by looking in the mirror and making a choice.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> That's what I'm trying to do anyways. I started by looking how I'm using Facebook and YouTube. I found I was wasting too much time on Facebook and I was building resentment of my friends who I felt were changing for the worst. I replaced the time on Facebook with time on YouTube. That took even more time and attention from my life that I totally could have used on my own well being. It's going to take some time, so why not start on rebuilding now?</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> All I know is that no matter who you backed on November 3rd, I'll do my best to be there for you it doesn't go your way.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"><span> Till next time Party People, keep on a chooglin!</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></p><p><span><span><span><span><span><span style="font-family: courier;"> </span></span><br /></span></span></span></span></p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-42793818543120265202020-05-28T05:53:00.001-07:002020-05-28T11:03:43.870-07:00Compassion and Acceptance, the Lie we Tell OurselvesMorning Party People,<div><span> I'm writing this through blogger instead of Facebook because I feel this is less of a jerk move. I mean you had to click on this to read it right? It's not like I'm putting a funny background that catches your eye just so I can slide my opinion into your brain much like a jerk who walks by singing the Brady Bunch theme song.</span><br /></div><div><span><span> I read a post about the death of that man by the cops who had their knee on his his neck. It was a very angry post. Why wouldn't it be? It's a horrible thing to have happened, it highlights so many things wrong with the world and the people in it. Then I see a post calling for compassion for everyone involved, including the police. That's when it hit me.</span><br /></span></div><div><span><span><span> We lie when we talk about compassion and acceptance. We strove for a world of acceptance but we were only talking about people we like, not the people we hate. We wanted a world of compassion but in the end we only cared about people we choose to care about, not the ones we didn't. We are liars. </span><br /></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span> As a society we looked at the horrible things the previous generations did and said," Not us, we'll never be our parents. We wont do to others what had been to us."</span><br /></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span> The cause is different, the energy is still the same.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span> I think it's great that the odds of a Mother of Father rejecting their kid for coming out is far less than it was 20 years ago. I think it's great that we show more mercy for people with disabilities or mental issues than we ever have before in my lifetime. I also don't think any of that matters when we treat someone who has a different view on immigration or healthcare like someone who was gay or disabled from 30 years ago. We didn't solve our tribal view, we just shifted our view on our tribe. We learned little on how to live with other tribes.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> For the record, I'm not where I want to be when it comes to these things. I am no saint, I have an easier time being around certain people than others and I am not the nicest person to everyone I meet. So please don't think I'm writing this as I look down from my ivory tower, I'm in the same mob as you and I'm writing this because I'm scared of what we'll do and who we will become afterwards.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> Till next time Party People, Keep on a Chooglin'</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-19041286231930491832020-05-13T00:32:00.000-07:002020-05-13T00:32:28.773-07:00What should we do, how should it be done, and who will we do it to?Morning Party People,<div><span> It's 1 AM and I can't sleep, it was times like these years ago that I would pack up my laptop and go to a Denny's off HWY 60 and Rural in Tempe. I would pop in my headphones and try to get a different view on my thoughts. </span><br /></div><div><span><span> I don't have a Moon Over My Hammy on deck but 2 out of 3 ain't bad as they say. So like a lot of people, I find myself too much into my own thoughts and feelings. I don't like this feeling, I don't trust it. As much as my heart is a part of me, it's gotten me into some really bad spots in my life. Isn't our emotions the source of everything good in this world? Parhaps, or it's just the inspiration, the starting point for all we accomplish. I'm starting to think it's the actions we take that make this world go round.</span><br /></span></div><div><span><span><span> Am I being to litteral? Are we not being literal enough? I think this lockdown had put up a mirror up to our faces and not everyone likes what they see.</span><br /></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span> I find myself getting angrier and angrier as they days go on, not so much with myself, mostly at everyone on my timeline. Everyone has a point, everyone has an opinion and it seems like everyone feels like they're right. It's as if because the spectacle of a public beating, a breaking of will is no longer a possibilty therefore we laugh at it. There are consequences though, bullying, doxing , smearing someone's reputation or their ability to create income. soon we can go after their dreams, their loved ones, we can get them to hurt themselves so we don't have to. All of these things have been done in isolated cases, more will come. I think of it like the Old West, the less law there is, mixed with a well armed public, tended to lead to a lot of murder.</span><br /></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span> Here's a random thought, how important is it that I'm right? How important is it that you are? Are we willing to sacrifice our morals and values to be right? I bet most of us would never think we would do such a thing, to give up on our morals and values. Oh but those two are so fluid! The can bend and break so eaily given the right motivation, coersion, or situation. You want to hear a confession about my morals and values? You want to know when I let them go and I became a hypocrite?</span><br /></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span> The truth is, I never choose to betray my morals and values, those were broken when I wasn't paying attention. Like most people, they were betrayed while I was focusing on being right, being free, being safe.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> I know I'm projecting my journey on the general public, that doesn't mean I'm too far off. I hate to see anyone make the same mistakes that I have.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> I think I'm having a harder time wanting to empathize with other people, or the world as it were. I see the world as a chaotic relationship with a person who doesn't love themselves enough to stop going on benders and making a mess of their lives. Do I try to show the world that someone loves them? It could work... it might work...oh wait, that usually doesn't work. The fact of the matter is that you can't love anyone more than they love themselves. It's like pouring a gallon jug into an 8 oz glass. They'll get the 8 oz of love, but anything else is a waste and should be used elsewhere.</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> As far as this lockdown goes, I have no answers. I don't think were out of it yet, but then again, I don't know if it's as bad as they say it is. I do know that we still haven't gone back to the way it was before 9/11 as far as travel or our rights go. That's the only reason I'm very cautious about this pandemic and the opportinity it can be for those with the "Best Intentions".</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div><div><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span><span> Tell next time Party People, keep on a chooglin'</span><br /></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-533551879141683012019-11-23T07:21:00.001-08:002019-11-23T07:21:28.156-08:00Hypocrisy, Unfriending, and understanding the need for Evil..all in 48 Hours =D<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
What's shakin' Party People?<br />
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I've never been a fan of cutting people out of one's life. I think it's something people do too quickly and I find it to be a horrible way to deal with one's problems. I think if that's a big tool in one's skill set, that it will lead to a life of being a weird cat-person who gets pissed off at everything. You know, the kind of person who looks like they're 64 years old when they're really only 45. Over the last 48 hours I've had to examine my feelings on this.<br />
I think it's a bad idea to cut people out of one's life that are close to you. I know there are totally exceptions. Like if you have a family member for is physically abusive or is constantly lying and stealing from you. I can understand that. If it's something that is philosophical in nature, political in nature, or even just a different world view, then we enter into tricky territory. Then we enter the game of Post-Modern Magic Football, that's the game where you keep moving the goal posts in every situation in life so you feel you're always winning, or feel like someone is always cheating you. Either way, it's built off of perception and not reality....so you know that's got to be good for everyone right?<br />
Well this week I'm going back on my views of this and I've unfriended a few people in the Denver Comedy Scene .Why? My thoughts, feeling, and perceptions is that these people will cling to their ideals to avoid making a choice of what is right,wrong, or in the gray area of the dreaded in between. In other words, they are not adults who can be trusted.<br />
You ever wonder why honor is important? Why it was created? Why it's a concept that has endured for centuries? If you've never had to use it, you wouldn't know. It's a form of value in one's word, thoughts and intentions.<br />
There is a reason why one's word means something. If I say "I give you my word" and then lie to you, then my word no longer has any value. Other people will not trust me and thus my value in that community has gone down.<br />
The dust up in the scene this week had to do with one comic making a statement about another comic in a way that can be very damaging to one's career. The fact that this statement that I believe to be a falsehood was said in a secret group didn't make things any better. While these things did not involve me directly, they involved one of my friends and a regular on my show. So what do I do?<br />
I make a choice not to do business with people who make statements that are untrue about another as well as the people who condone such actions. This sucks because this means they're are a lot of rooms and shows that I wont be trying to get on. That means less exposure as well as money. Some things are more important than others.<br />
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The other reason I unfriended people this week is because they say stupid self-righteous bullshit and the fact that I barely know them means I don't have to give two shits whether they live or die. One in particular had the provocative thought of not supporting an artist who is a shit person because their work is so good. What a big umbrella to through so many tough questions under! No need to think about this on a case per case basis! John Lennon and Bill Cosby can both be cancelled!<br />
There are plenty of reasons to love and hate many people. The whole statement of that person felt like a virtue signal to me, of which I choose to respond accordingly. "If you don't believe the way I believe then you can unfriend me now!"<br />
If you insist ....future cat-person.<br />
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Till next time Party People,<br />
Keep on a Chooglin!</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-31669464462759648382019-10-03T05:27:00.000-07:002019-10-03T05:27:26.166-07:00Could the answer be that we're all right and wrong at the same time?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
What's shakin Party People!<br />
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I'm up early on a Thursday morning and I'm trying to fix the worlds problems from my studio. Keep in mind, when I say "Fix the World" I mean I'm just trying to find a way to make it do what I tell it to do.<br />
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The topic of censorship has been coming up a lot in stand up comedy and rather than have a thoughtful discussion with a way to move forward as a society, a lot of us have chosen to pick a side and show up to the war with merch. Meaning in the argument there are a few valid points, and with those points come many selfish self serving interpretations that suit many a selfish needs.<br />
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In my opinion, censorship is trying to ruin comedy but it's making it better by accident. I think anytime you try to control thought and expression it comes back with even more force and meaning. We've already seen this in every decade going back to the 50's when it comes to music and film.<br />
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Censorship has evolved along with our technology in the way of demonetizing and search engine results. These tactics are effective in this day and age but I wonder if they will have the same influence in the next few years. At this point I think YouTube is begging for someone to come along and knock them off their perch. The same can be said for Google. Keep in mind that 20 years ago, the power and influence they wield was then possessed by the 24 Hour news cycles, 15 years prior to that it was the 3 major networks, before that the newspapers and so on. In the end , it always backfires.<br />
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This week I read an article trying to state the case that comedians George Carlin and Eddie Murphy wouldn't be on the "side" of UN-PC comedy. That whole premise stinks of someone who hasn't been in comedy for a very long time. First thing is first, putting words and intention into a dead person's mouth is fucking gross. Secondly, if you were going to state a person's ideals in an article, maybe ask the person who is still alive instead of just watching a video of someone else's work and using that for your argument. The weird thing about comedy is no matter how offensive the joke is, there are a lot of us who will always ask the question, was it funny? We're people laughing?<br />
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I'll try to be cheerful and inspirational here but life and existence is pain and suffering. A big part of life is being able to see through the misery that comes in two forms, constant and in abundance. When we can see through all of that bullshit and laugh, to find joy in the cosmic joke of humanity, we are able to rise above the muck and see the true joy in life. That being our thoughts, our feelings, the way we have bonds of love and friendship in a reality that craves conflict and evolution. Laughter is very human, it also spits in the face of power, now matter if that power is above you or below you.<br />
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I see both sides of the debate , you won't like either, I'll just tell you now.<br />
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I see the comic who cries at how he can't say anything offensive and that his rights are being taken away from him. He's usually a young comic (0-4 years in stand-up) who hasn't figured out how to be funny yet. For the life of them they can't figure our why the baby raping jokes aren't going over.<br />
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On the other side , is a comic who doesn't think other comics should say anything offensive and is more interested in influencing the world for the better. They also are about 0-4 years into comedy and haven't found a way to be funny yet. They have a tendency to perform in their support bubbles and mistake clapter for laughter.<br />
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The point is, a great cause is an even greater distraction from creating something personal and real in their art. When that work is finally created, you're going to need that freedom of expression to get it to as many people as possible, so be careful what you wish for. Causes have a bad habit of swallowing up the individual if we're not careful.<br />
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Till next time Party People, keep on a chooglin!<br />
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Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-225214326135313342019-03-30T22:23:00.001-07:002019-03-30T22:23:33.353-07:00I don't write as much as I used to and nowhere near as much as I should.<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Evening Party People,<br />
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It's been awhile since I've sat down and hit the keys hasn't it. I think in my ego I think perhaps one of you out there on the Internet is waiting for me to write something. Perhaps you connect with what I feel from time to time, maybe these silly blogs give you joy or perhaps just a little piece of mind.<br />
I bask in my ego for just a moment and realize that perhaps you aren't waiting for me to write something, I am. That part of me that's waiting is wearing a mask that has your face. It knows I crave an audience...it knows me so well. Strange that I don't at times.<br />
This next month is going to be a challenge, this time by choice. I'm calling it the DisJointed Challenge. In the month of April , I'm going to push my body to work out 15 times in 30 days. 5 workouts must be before work and 5 after work.<br />
I'm doing this because I want to see if I have what it takes to state a goal and follow through with it. I did a similar challenge of no video games in the month of February. I learned a bit about myself in that month so I'm excited about what I'll learn in April.<br />
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My car seems to be working great now, one less excuse to not hit the open mics. I'm a little nervous about the scene, perhaps my perception of it isn't attuned to what it really is. Everyone has the best intentions of not wanting to offend anyone, which I think is a good thing. However in my view , the world doesn't always deserve to be treated nicely, no one does. That's not to say we shouldn't be nice to one another, I'm saying no one deserves to be treated nicely for no particular reason. The key word is "deserve".<br />
I think we as a species have forgotten how we got to this era, this time and place of our civilization. We live in a world where we don't treat people with special needs as being mentally ill. While we incarcerate way too many people, we don't don't execute people for minor crimes. Granted we love to watch a person's career and character be publicly executed, we don't hang people or behead them in a town square in America.<br />
While I think we have many lofty ideals about acceptance and tolerance, we forget that forgiveness is an essential part of moving past (or overcoming) our caveman dna. I think if we can't forgive , if we can't see our enemies with love and compassion, then I don't think it matters how many people are on "Our Side" , in the end we wont change a thing.<br />
Still stubborn, still vengeful, still clenching our first in the name of what's right, we just can't have nice things.<br />
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Lucky for us, if we stand back a few steps from the world around us, turn the canvass and adjust our view, we can see how comical it all is. My favorite example is everyone hating Kanye for liking Trump and in the same week pretend to care about people suffering from mental illness. That's funny to me. I should save some of this for my act, just felt the need to reach out and say hello.<br />
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I hope you're doing well my friends, I really do.</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-33847022770958737372019-02-26T23:30:00.001-08:002019-02-26T23:30:34.194-08:00Hamel never left!!!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<br /></div><iframe src="https://anchor.fm/disjointedpod/embed/episodes/Ep-242Jacob-Hamel-e3a6gi" height="102px" width="400px" frameborder="0" scrolling="no"></iframe>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-69864577532794601572019-01-28T23:08:00.001-08:002019-01-28T23:08:52.252-08:00New Home for The DisJointed Podcast<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Find The DisJointed Podcast on many of your favorite listening apps <a href="https://anchor.fm/david-germain" target="_blank">here</a>!</div>
Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7335392022070834473.post-72610567637787986242018-11-28T06:50:00.000-08:002018-11-28T06:50:44.213-08:00Humanity fail on my part!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Morning Party People!<br />
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I know it's been awhile since I've written anything on here, it's been awhile since I've done anything truly creative to be frank. I'm feeling the effects of it for sure.<br />
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I'm not sure that this post would be considered creative so let's just say it's mildly productive.<br />
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In the past two weeks I've fallen down two YouTube rabbit holes. One being African Americans reacting to heavy metal music. The other one being updates on Tekashi 69 vids.<br />
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For those of you who don't know , Tekashi 69 is a rapper from New York that sports an insane amount of face tattoos and rainbow colored hair. I listened to 1.5 of his music videos so I am no means an expert. I will say that his music has some catchy bits and is very aggressive , so I get why young men would dig it.His other skill seemed to be with social media and trolling. Most of which seems to be working against him.<br />
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The past week the artist was arrested and charged with some serious crimes such as racketeering, robbery, and drug distribution. The kind of charges that would make you pray for just being charged with domestic violence. Now I'm no legal expert, hell I'm not any kind of expert, but I'm pretty sure they're going to say that everything Tekashi 69 posted on line was for entertainment only.<br />
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It reminds me of Schrodinger's Paradox, a concept my friends Amy and Aaron told me about. It states that a person's words are totally serious until another person gets pissed and confronts them, at that point the previous statement "miraculously" turns into a joke and was never meant to be taken seriously. The social media generation uses this rule quite often.<br />
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You're not the only one's who do this kids, you're just the generation that grew up in this new environment and see the world just a little bit differently than the one previous generations grew up in.Lucky you.<br />
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I think the next generation will have a rediscovery of honor and integrity. Meaning they'll have to find a way to create( or recreate) a level of value to one's own word. It used to mean something, then we found loopholes, then we lessened the value, and then the internet came along and flipped the game board all together. So congratulations young people, it's up to you to save humanity....or maybe just yourselves for right now, but you get the idea.<br />
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Till next time Party People,<br />
Keep on a Chooglin!</div>
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Evening Party People,<br />
Full disclosure, I've had about half of a weed lollipop so I'm feeling pretty open now.<br />
I love my wife, that's no secret. She's everything that I ever wanted in a relationship as well as in friendship. That's not to say that I haven't had other people love me or been as close a friend as she has. There's a reason why I chose to spend my life with her, it's not because she loved me more than anyone else in my past, it's because she understood who I was as an artist.That my friend is not an easy thing to do, not just for me but for any artist who wants to dedicate their life to entertaining people.<br />
There were a few ladies in my past that wanted to give me the world but in my heart I knew I couldn't accept it, not from them. I had made a big mistake before in my first marriage for many reasons. All these mistakes that I had made started out as a good intention then somewhere along the way they morphed into rusty razors slicing not only through my life but also to the woman I once had loved. For that reason I knew I couldn't make a commitment like marriage ever again unless I was completely honest with who I was.<br />
I remember years ago in Tempe when Jennie first moved in, I was at my desk writing something and she kept trying to talk to me. For any decent human being they would've stopped writing and engaged their sweetie. That's not what I did, I grew increasingly more upset every time she tried to talk to me until I saw a tear roll down her face and she went into the next room. Once again a decent human would have stopped writing but I didn't. I finished the piece I was working on then waited for her to come back out. I didn't want to be an asshole about it but I had to get that thought out. Once Jennie came back out we had to acknowledge my shitty behavior , she didn't yell at me, she didn't draw any line in the sand but let me know she wasn't happy. I wasn't either because I didn't want to have to choose between a relationship and my art, not like I did in my first marriage.<br />
In the end I would tell her when I was going to be working on something and would need some time, obviously if there is something super important we would totally talk about whatever was on her mind. I'm guessing she felt that if she was going to love an artist she had to accept everything about him, not just the fun parts.<br />
I had to accept the ugly parts about being an artist as well. There are many things that are ugly but here are just a few:<br />
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1. I'm selfish - Weather it's a stand-up set,a podcast, part in a show or just working of painting I am committed. Everything else in the world will take a back seat. Friend or family in trouble? Will they still be in trouble after the show? Sorry it'll have to wait. That's a horrible thing to say but a performers one rule is "The Show must go on!" That's something many of performers live and die by.<br />
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2. I'm emotionally needy/volatile/impulsive- Part of being creative is wanting to share your thoughts and feelings 24/7. It would be awesome if the whole world was interested but more often than not nobody cares.That wont stop an artist from trying to share them anyways. If you're looking for a stoic person to share your life with then an artist isn't for you.<br />
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3. Performing came first in my life any it is my first true love- That's like being in a poly-amorous relationship of sorts. Poly in the way that if you're dating a performer you're also dating their love of performing. Meaning you're not the only person dating that artist, art got to them first and isn't letting go anytime soon.<br />
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There any many more crappy things about me but hopefully you get where I'm going with this. I thought I should put this out there so if you think you're in love with a creative you might want to see the whole picture and what you're getting to.<br />
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At some point we all have to take responsibility for the things that make us nuts and to do our best not to make our struggle a love one's burden..<br />
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Till Next time Party People<br />
Keep on a chooglin!<br />
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