Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Looking behind The Green Curtain

Today is going to be a great day today. How do I know this? Simple, it's the last day off I have for about a week! So today I intend to get the most out of it by focusing on my work as opposed to playing around in the land of Skyrim.

I had an idea of what I wanted to write about this morning when I sat down but now the idea seems to be slipping away. I guess I'll start with what's been the most difficult thing to deal with lately.

You would think I would be bitching about money and I could but that's not the biggest problem I'm facing . The biggest problem I'm facing is the battle to rewrite how I live my life on a subconscious level. Meaning breaking bad habits and forming new ones. Come to think of it, I already know how to do that and have done that before. I think it's goes a little deeper than that. Remember when you were a kid and you were riding a bike with your friends? I always think of a jump that I was afraid to do but after I did it I knew it was in my realm of possibility or abilities as it were. At some point there would be another jump that would come along that I wasn't able to do and as such a boundary was created. I find myself being angry when I find those boundaries in my own life, especially since I don't remember putting them there.

So what's the next step? I'm not going to spend a perfectly good day off focusing on what I can't do, I already know what I can't do, today is about finding out about what I can do. So I'm going to edit some more, I'm going to write some more music and when I look back on today my boundaries will have shifted. The old me fuggin hates when I do shit like this ^^

Till next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

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