As promised, day 1

Morning Party People!
           Ok so here's da one of "I just woke up writing". Just to be honest I woke up about 20 minutes ago, I made coffee and put some butter,mct oil as well as some cocconut sugar in it to give it that special taste that seems to make me so happy these days.  I hearthe mct oil is suppose to help with weight loss for sme reason, I believed it yet I have done no research on it, I only have faith that someday this gut of mine will go away and I can be the me that I've always wanted to be.
           Fat is something that I've aleays hated about me, it's the last thing I despise no that  thnk about it.I've learned to love even the worst things about me over the past few years (ever since the rebirth) yet my body still isthe source of much of my dismay. "You're going to get fat, you're going to get fat,'you're oing to get fat,get fat,get fat,get fat, ou're too fat,too fat ,too fat, fat,fat,fat...." It might seem like I'm being overly dramatic but if I look back into a select area of my past I could run a stream of instances where those words we're always thrown at me, usually from people who thought they were helping. Remember when I said that the wonderful yet horrifing thing about mankind is that if you tell a human something long enough eventually they believe it? This is what I believe, I'm fat, have always been fat, will always be fat and will die a blob of failure that people will point and laugh at. When I think about it I get so angry I want to hurt everyone around me, I can't hurt my friends and family though right? I love them, they love me, so what do I do with this anger?
           This is the part where I'm trying to rewire my brain. My MO is to get angry/depressed and rather than do something constructive I take that anger out on me. I do this by eating like shit, eating something horrible like a double whopper, fries, coke oh and don't forget the chocolate pie they have! On the way home I should get something to snack on later, sure I have frozen pizza at home as well as pasta but I could go for a hostess cupcake or some chips right about now. sounds good? Maybe a little gross? I agree completely Party People.
          Here's the thing about addictions to anything, they feel great! If they didn't we wouldn't do them. They feel so good in fact that while they are changing your life for the worse you don't even realise it. Think of an anesthetic for your soul, you're numb, they joy that once was so intense becomes into a desire to not feel anything at all. Well I need to feel again, feel something else besides my stomache anyways. I find myself focusing on what I'm feeling after I eat, I don't want to hate myself anymore when it comes to food but I don't want to be too easy on me either.
           There's some baby steps in here somewhere I know it, I just don't see it just now. I won't get too down on not seeing them as this is only day one =)

Till next time Party People!
Keep on a Chooglin!

It's a lot of what you would think it is, not what it ever was...only more so!

It's a lot of what you would think it is, not what it ever was...only more so!
          That's right I'm feeling creative Party People! Hence the confusing idea that's used as bait to lure you all into thinking that I'm thinking deep! Before I go any further let me show you the inspiration to this artsy high I'm feeling :https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/405-steven-pressfield-aubrey/id360084272?i=169208291&mt=2

           As I was listening to Steven Pressfield author of The War of Art I found myself hating the fact that I was driving a cab instead of sitting here at my computer writing (like I am right now). This pod is making me look at what forms of resistence I have in my life and now I'm formulating a plan on how to overcome them.
           Am example of resistance if distractions that keep me from writing on a daily basis. So perhaps I need to jump start my writing again by doing a daily blog? I've done 90 days of continuous writing, this should be no problem, right?
           I think a theme is needed for this upcoming project though. I've got it! I'll write a blog every morning for the next thirty days! Why morning time? Because I won't have been completely awake so the stream of conscious writing should be in full effect! Think of this as a workout rgiment for creativity, you're all welcome to join in the work if you like in the comment section, just copy and paste your own blog into the comments and let's see what we come up with! It doesn't have to make sense, hell we don't even have to read it after we're done! I think the writing alone is going to make this super special and 10 types of awesome!

Till Next Time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

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A few ideas and questions for The Party People!

Evening Party People!
            Great hoobly woobly has it been awhile since I've taken the time to write to all of you out there in the ether of the net. Things have been super busy as of late and now I find myself in the position of regulating my time from work,more work, a little bit of sleep and anything else that's dear to me.
            As far as the taxi biz I'm doing weekly leases. That means I have the cab with me 24/7. It also means I'll have the opportunity to make some serious green for the trip to Colorado this winter! I find myself working a few hours in the morning, then I come home to spend some time with Jennie then it's back out onto the road with hopefully a stop t an open mic later that evening. In other words from 6 in the morning till about 10 at night I'm running around.
           When I'm not doing that I'm recording my podcast so I can keep my creative brain a moving along. As far as the pod goes I feel like it gets better with every week. I'm having a blast talking to all these great local artists and I think down the line it might mean something, assuming it doesn't already.
      Ok enough about the whole," I'm so tired bullshit". Let's talk about something that means something to all of us, spaceships!
         I know crowd sourcing is a big thing these days and I wonder why no one has stepped up and said," Hey instead of waiting for the government or some corporation to make this happen we thought we'd build this shit ourselves, that's right bitches we're building a star ship and clocking out of this rat race."
         Seriously isn't the internet supposed to bring us all together? Geez I wonder where we could find some geniuses....(geniusi?), to help us create the tech to see this through....hey I wonder if they're on this internet thing, you know the same thing we use to watch porn as well as huge zit popping vids. If anything I think the idea of this needs to rattle around in our skulls. We need to hope for something big to happen that isn't a disaster,  we need to hope for a light at the end of the tunnel, the end of the school year, or dare I say, the first moments of a Christmas morning.
         Could you imaging if there were a few hundred thousand of us that all helped build a massive ark to explore the universe! Even better we could tell all the nations to have fun fighting amongst themselves in the century old war of domination! Dear everyone, the pawns have left the board!
          Think about it =P

Till next time Party People
Keep on a Chooglin!

This week we sit down with Clay Elliott and talk about Japanese and stuff!

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